Rants: Everyday Venting

[Nutmeg]

I feel so unappreciated.
I love my friends, and I only want the best for them, but they really wind me up sometimes. I always do little things for them to show I care like waiting behind 10 minutes for them even if I really need to be somewhere, letting them take some of my food for the umpteenth time, being there if they need me etc, but they never do the same. If I vocalise my thoughts about this I only get a shrug in return.
I'm not the loud and chatty type so I listen to most of their conversations while nodding along, but if I ever want to share a story they quickly tune me out because everything I say is 'boring'. Then they complain I don't say much. I have an olive skin tone, which apparently translates to 'green' and they'll randomly point out that I'm camoflagued while sitting in the grass. I don't have any input when it comes to group descisions because 'my opinion doesn't count' because of something dumb I did 5 years ago that they bring up all the time. Everything I love is weird, pervy and disgusting to them and they make sure to remind me constantly while telling me how much of a faliure I am. I have a little more money in my savings than them because I don't blow it all at once so they expect me to lend them money whenever and expect that I don't notice they pay me back short or use things they've given me as an excuse.
I have some great times with them from time to time, sure, but I can't wait to move in and make new friends. Sometimes I wonder why I'm still dealing with them. I guess it's because I'm afraid of being alone. The trouble is, I feel lonely even though I'm surrounded by people.

[Jane]

As the year winds down I'm feeling more and more uneasy. I live with my sibling and feel like a burden to them since moving in with them was sudden and out of nowhere but it had to be done. I'm worried of leaving school and my mother won't see me graduating. It hurts and I'm stressed out and I keep taking it out on others. I just want a break to where I don't feel like a burden and I don't have to worry, but I guess life doesn't work that way.

[★Amethyst★]

-a bunch of me complaining about stuff, sorry in advance-

Summer's started for me, and I can already feel some of the ennui that comes from sitting around at home being bored and lonely creeping in I never liked the summer.

I wish I had some fun stuff to do but I have no idea where to even find any of that. I literally have like only two friends, one of which is my boyfriend, which means I don't have a lot of options of hanging out with people either. I want to do more stuff with my boyfriend, but he works a lot and is also not very...decisive? Like, I try to say "hey, let's do this okay?" but I don't want to sound pushy or annoying.

It's not any better that I can't drive yet, or maybe I would try getting out of the house and do /something/. I could try looking for some meetup or other groups in my city related to my interests that might give me a chance of coming across people to make friends with, but I'm not even sure if my parents would drive me there if that were the case? I'm trying to keep busy at home working on some plushies and stuff to try and open my etsy shop sometime this summer, but it feels like I'm getting nowhere and I'm not sure if it'll even work out anyway. Blah -_-

[Bricket]

I am going to be honest here:

I feel absolutely pointless and not wanted.
Everywhere I am if it is here or somewhere else: I feel useless and being a problem to the people being there.
The image I have over myself is that I am an annoying and ignorant prick that does  not know how to speak or behave.

The things I do? Politics? Don't make me laugh, I feel like a total joke in that. I would never succeed in doing that nor even dreaming of it.


I feel whatever I do: I am a complete faillure

[Cecilia Peromi]

You aren't a failure Bricket. There are just so many people in this world. It's so easy to be overlooked. But i'm sure you're okay. Really, and you'll always have us.

[ZalTheRaccoon]

Life is starting to feel super complicated for me now, I'm thinking over a lot of personal things and considering my possible future. I'm just having a hard time finding a reason to care about whether I live or die lately.

[Cecilia Peromi]

This period happens to everyone Zal. Just hang on tight and don't let go. You'll get through this.

[ZalTheRaccoon]

Thank you Cecilia

[Bricket]

You aren't a failure Bricket. There are just so many people in this world. It's so easy to be overlooked. But i'm sure you're okay. Really, and you'll always have us.

Thank, but looking back at what I've archieved: I've done nothing nor made any impact on others their life

[★Amethyst★]

Yeah, I sometimes feel like I'm having a subtle existential crisis. Like, I'm not sure what I should really be doing and feel kind of lost, but when I do have something I want to do I question whether it's worth it or if I'm just wasting my time.

I think I've gotten slightly better at dealing with it over the years, and at least now I can stop myself before I get too deep into depression. Like the last part of my above paragraph, I just need to find something I want to accomplish, and push myself to do it. Screw whether it's worth my time, just finishing something for once is a big deal for me. I don't really know how far I can go until I actually get walking...

[Cecilia Peromi]

Well your life isn't over yet Bricket. The past is the past. Make the most out of the present. All you really need to do is just try your absolute best. I know you can do it Bricket.

[Rob_Silvermyst]

Gods, debt just keeps getting worse. Rent is about to take another hike with the next renewal, I had to spend more money on a class and double that for my guard card. Working almost 50 hours a week as a warehouse picker with dust EVERYWHERE and my sinuses putting me through hell. I need to catch a break I need this investment to pan out and net me a security job that actually pays well. If not, I might end up having to move to another state, provided I have enough to even do that.

[Cecilia Peromi]

Poor Rob, I hope things work out. Remember to save and stuff (I'm not good with money, I'm still living with my Aunt and Uncle.)

It's good to see you again by the way.

[Jane]

Feeling really homesick, missing my mom greatly I'm not excited to end my year like this

[DestinyUnleashed]

I hate being in such a gun-crazy country.
They pop up so frequently and in the places where I feel the safest, TFF for example, that it's very hard for me to go a day without feeling any kind of panic.
I don't expect people to accommodate for me, but gun control is a very slippery topic for me. I don't care if you shoot for fun or to hunt, it's not my business, but I just don't want to see or hear it.