My life is an extremely careful balancing act, as a couple of you know, and it's close to the edge often. And now it's teetering on the edge with no realistic hope of it backing down anytime soon. I'm not ready to bolt yet. No job, car, drivers license, bank account, almost no money, no degree, not ready physically. If it happens anytime soon, I am so **censor** screwed. And I can't sit back because he'll do even more damage to my future. **censor** if I do **censor** if I don't. Why. Why can't I just be a normal guy with normal problems.