Rants: Everyday Venting

[★Amethyst★]

Literally everyone and everything around me has pissed me off at least once. So no, I'm just generally in a bad temper. Or I'm extremely sad (don't want to say "depressed" because I know someone will lecture me on how I have to diagnosed by a doctor in order to call it depression).

To be fair, I've never been diagnosed either. But that doesn't change feeling like crud if you really do.

[The Past]

I apparently picked an odd time to vent my thing.

Geoffrey you aren't evil.

You calling me Geoffrey was enough to cheer me up, so all is not lost.

[Cecilia Peromi]

I just can't be there for everyone all the time. Although I'd really like to, I'm still human you know?

But at least I made you smile.

[saph the sergal]

my hunt for one thing is driving me nuts

i just want a steel fire extinguisher so i can safely put it near a 700 degree c (1220F) smelter

tried google?

  of course i have its the fact that most dont list what its made from on their site
atleast i got one email back saying its made from mild steel today so thats good[/quote]

[Alessia Starfurr]

my hunt for one thing is driving me nuts

i just want a steel fire extinguisher so i can safely put it near a 700 degree c (1220F) smelter

tried google?

  of course i have its the fact that most dont list what its made from on their site
atleast i got one email back saying its made from mild steel today so thats good

Ahh glad you found one safety is always something important.. we have one fire extingusiher in every room almost where i live.

[Silaluk]

Everyone who thinks they have a wolf totem without going to a shaman or another Native American religious power annoys the shit out of me.


Quizzes online ARE NOT ACCURATE. Your totem is not based on personality alone! So many freaking white people think our culture is so "beautiful and mysterious" but they literally have NO understanding of it. This doesn't apply to everyone, and I'm not going to condemn those who have an interest, but you are exploiting my people just so you can fit your selfish ideals. Wolves are cool and all, but you shouldn't complain if your totem is a beaver or a caribou. It's of the utmost disrespect.


You don't choose your totem, the totem chooses you. Torngasak chooses it, it's beyond your tiny amount of human control.

[kalan]

I'm tired of being internally negative all the time. It's gotten to the point where I see something I'm fine with or enjoy, but my first thought is something hateful that I don't actually feel or believe. It's like all the hateful comments I see about everything are living in my head and like to pop out at bad times. Or is this really a part of me? Am I a monster in denial?
Am I just plain insane?

Ive found myself thinking something similar, I cant stop being an asshole to people. Its starting to drive me crazy to the point im ready to give up on everything and just say screw it. I didnt use to be this way either, and im concered about what im gonna become later. At least I know theres one sure way to stop it

[saph the sergal]

my hunt for one thing is driving me nuts

i just want a steel fire extinguisher so i can safely put it near a 700 degree c (1220F) smelter

tried google?

  of course i have its the fact that most dont list what its made from on their site
atleast i got one email back saying its made from mild steel today so thats good

Ahh glad you found one safety is always something important.. we have one fire extingusiher in every room almost where i live.

there aint no way one is being used for saftey

its getting cut in half and put into a fire for aluminium melting 

the ones i need around the house are the CO2 ones because of the computers around the house and those cost more then i can afford right now

[Alessia Starfurr]

my hunt for one thing is driving me nuts

i just want a steel fire extinguisher so i can safely put it near a 700 degree c (1220F) smelter

tried google?

  of course i have its the fact that most dont list what its made from on their site
atleast i got one email back saying its made from mild steel today so thats good

Ahh glad you found one safety is always something important.. we have one fire extingusiher in every room almost where i live.

there aint no way one is being used for saftey

its getting cut in half and put into a fire for aluminium melting 

the ones i need around the house are the CO2 ones because of the computers around the house and those cost more then i can afford right now

Alumnium sculptor huh?

[Cecilia Peromi]

Kalan, don't.  Just like I told Geoffrey, you are not evil. If you say that you weren't always like this then the question is: How did you change? And there's one person you haven't hurt ever, me.

[saph the sergal]

my hunt for one thing is driving me nuts

i just want a steel fire extinguisher so i can safely put it near a 700 degree c (1220F) smelter

tried google?

  of course i have its the fact that most dont list what its made from on their site
atleast i got one email back saying its made from mild steel today so thats good

Ahh glad you found one safety is always something important.. we have one fire extingusiher in every room almost where i live.

there aint no way one is being used for saftey

its getting cut in half and put into a fire for aluminium melting 

the ones i need around the house are the CO2 ones because of the computers around the house and those cost more then i can afford right now

Alumnium sculptor huh?

nah just a person out to make some spare cash on scrap aluminuim and old drink cans

[The Past]

Everyone who thinks they have a wolf totem without going to a shaman or another Native American religious power annoys the shit out of me.


Quizzes online ARE NOT ACCURATE. Your totem is not based on personality alone! So many freaking white people think our culture is so "beautiful and mysterious" but they literally have NO understanding of it. This doesn't apply to everyone, and I'm not going to condemn those who have an interest, but you are exploiting my people just so you can fit your selfish ideals. Wolves are cool and all, but you shouldn't complain if your totem is a beaver or a caribou. It's of the utmost disrespect.


You don't choose your totem, the totem chooses you. Torngasak chooses it, it's beyond your tiny amount of human control.

Literally every non-Native American person I've seen who claims they have a certain totem animal, it is ALWAYS wolf. Never anything else. My old friend is part Cherokee and he occasionally ranted about that. If I remember correctly, he said seriously having a wolf totem was uncommon.
He was unsure of his at the time, but a relative (though not a shaman) assumed his was a fox.
Despite my love of bears, mine might actually be some sort of bird. That estimation could be wrong, and there's no way for me to find out for sure as of right now. And even then, totem animals aren't entirely static and can change as the person learns and grows, right? I could be wrong, though, for all I know about the subject is what I remember my friend telling me years ago and a few resources that might not be entirely correct.

[BennyJackdaw]

Do you think Nrein would appreciate it if I drew a picture of Dewott? He seems to like Dewott.

[Cecilia Peromi]

I like Dewott. You should do it. Make it an apology gift.

[Silaluk]

Literally every non-Native American person I've seen who claims they have a certain totem animal, it is ALWAYS wolf. Never anything else. My old friend is part Cherokee and he occasionally ranted about that. If I remember correctly, he said seriously having a wolf totem was uncommon. He was unsure of his at the time, but a relative (though not a shaman) assumed his was a fox. Despite my love of bears, mine might actually be some sort of bird. That estimation could be wrong, and there's no way for me to find out for sure as of right now. And even then, totem animals aren't entirely static and can change as the person learns and grows, right? I could be wrong, though, for all I know about the subject is what I remember my friend telling me years ago and a few resources that might not be entirely correct.

I don't know much about Cherokee, but considering how many animals there are, I think having a wolf WOULD be pretty uncommon.
I believe that in my culture, only a shaman can truly tell what your totem is, but many elders have been able to predict somewhat. I guess it just depends on the tribe.

And even then, totem animals aren't entirely static and can change as the person learns and grows, right? I could be wrong, though, for all I know about the subject is what I remember my friend telling me years ago and a few resources that might not be entirely correct.

In my Eskimo culture, totems are forever, because you get them when you are recognized as an adult, or reach the end of childhood and begin puberty. Like I said, it just depends. We're a dying tribe anyway so not everything is really 100% traditional anymore.