Rants: Everyday Venting

[Cecilia Peromi]

I don't see anything wrong with that. I think center is good.

[The Past]

I wish I accepted my issue sooner before desperately using my loved one as a coping device years back. I will never forgive myself for the bullshit I put them through, no matter how much they claim to forgive me. I wish I could turn back time and get the help I needed then before dragging them down. Even if the change made us simply friends, I'd rather that than them going through my nonsense. They didn't deserve all that.

[Jane]

Feeling really inadequate about my body and my identity. For weeks and weeks all I hear is homophobic and transphobic remarks and its really getting to me, I don't feel comfortable around people like this, the remarks are not directed at me, I'm not comfortable coming out to family or friends as much but its still remarks to the community I am happy I'll be graduating and leaving that place soon . maybe then I'll feel more comfortable.

[Cecilia Peromi]

That makes me think about something... you know how I thought I was transgender? Well, after doing some soul searching (with help from my therapist) it turns out that all I really had was a identity crisis.

But... I'm still not sure... I don't know...

[Ibi Tanvaal]

I've considered the possibility a few times, but to actually go through with it is expensive and permanent. I can't deal with the idea that I might regret it sometime in the future.

[The Past]

It's a shame that so many people who want to get into the military are the type who seriously shouldn't be trusted in the military. The type who have several screws loose or are plain old d-bags, in it for the glory of being a manipulative "hero", shooting down people for kicks.

The military is important, and people like that make it seem like it's just a game. This shit isn't Call of Duty, folks, nor does it make you an automatic good person.

[kalan]

Im on the edge of snapping i dont think my stress can get any higher right now

[Sianni]

I feel very... stuck.

If you didn't know already I'm the eldest of three sisters, my step sister is the youngest. So naturally I'm supposed to inherit my father's shop while my sisters can pursue whatever they desire. Normally I'm not very sour about the situation, I've known my entire life this would happen, but I feel like I need to do something... I'm not quite sure what, but I want to do something more than sitting in the back room sewing or sanding.

I've learned many useful skills because of my upbringing but sitting in the back room for nearly 18 hours on any given day has made me dull and almost semi-invalid. Our only remaining shop assistant and carpenters just treat me like I'm going to inherit the business, which I am, but I feel like I can be more than their future employer.

Or maybe I can't. I don't have any friends and no one I share my life with anymore. My sisters are just on the other side of town but every day I have less motivation to visit them. I'm either busy, or it just seems too far, or I simply just feel too overwhelmed by everything else. This forum is really the last hope I have for social interaction.

This is the life my father chose for me, it would be very disgraceful of me to just sell the business. I know I can easily find work elsewhere but... it just comes with being the eldest of three.

[Orthus Fangwill]

I feel very... stuck.

If you didn't know already I'm the eldest of three sisters, my step sister is the youngest. So naturally I'm supposed to inherit my father's shop while my sisters can pursue whatever they desire. Normally I'm not very sour about the situation, I've known my entire life this would happen, but I feel like I need to do something... I'm not quite sure what, but I want to do something more than sitting in the back room sewing or sanding.

I've learned many useful skills because of my upbringing but sitting in the back room for nearly 18 hours on any given day has made me dull and almost semi-invalid. Our only remaining shop assistant and carpenters just treat me like I'm going to inherit the business, which I am, but I feel like I can be more than their future employer.

Or maybe I can't. I don't have any friends and no one I share my life with anymore. My sisters are just on the other side of town but every day I have less motivation to visit them. I'm either busy, or it just seems too far, or I simply just feel too overwhelmed by everything else. This forum is really the last hope I have for social interaction.

This is the life my father chose for me, it would be very disgraceful of me to just sell the business. I know I can easily find work elsewhere but... it just comes with being the eldest of three.

Ah, the joys of being the eldest. It is indeed hard. I appreciate that you really love your family, and you respect your father's inheritance. I salute you for that. But please do remember to leave some of that love for yourself. You have every right to live a life the way you want to as long as you don't step on other people's ways. If you are not happy with that and feel uncomfortable with the situation you are in, feel free to tell your family and discuss it over with them. If they really love you, they should respect the fact that you feel left out and want something more than just handling an old family business.

Options would be:
1. Continue as the future heir.
2. Find someone trustworthy to take care of the business and go live life the way you want to. (Best option)
3. Sell the business. (This is a last resort)

The choice is up to you. I know this is hard to get through, but you would eventually. Just always remember that there is hope and there is always to solve these problems. I wish you good luck.

[Cheza]

Wanted to watch the Runescape summer summit stream, but since my main internet still doesn't work I had to give up due to all the lag.
And seeing as the loaner I got from my ISP didn't solve the problem, I'll have to wait until Monday until I can give fixing the thing another try.

Unless I leave for Siberia before that, that is >->

[Bricket]

We got a new train but there is a lot of water damage in the interior so no idea how we are gonna repair that.
It it is impossible we will have to strip it and completely make a new interior

[Alessia Starfurr]

It's a shame that so many people who want to get into the military are the type who seriously shouldn't be trusted in the military. The type who have several screws loose or are plain old d-bags, in it for the glory of being a manipulative "hero", shooting down people for kicks.

The military is important, and people like that make it seem like it's just a game. This shit isn't Call of Duty, folks, nor does it make you an automatic good person.

"You wanted to play hero. Well, you joined the wrong organization. You ever hear of James Edwards?
"No."

" Well, he saved the lives of fifteen people tonight. But nobody knows he exists. And if nobody knows he exists, how can anybody love him?" (Men In Black 2 ~ Agent J)

On another note I hear video game players make great Predator Drone pilots... You just need to realize your not playing a 60 dollar game anymore your piloting a remote control plane with REAL guns oh and not to mention it's worth a million dollars.

[Sianni]

My heart is behaving oddly, this is mostly normal except I took medicine. It's still doing it and I can't figure out what's wrong.

I'll get it checked out when my step mother comes back, if it doesn't stop.

[HyenaKing]

Why does everything hurt so much?

[Sianni]

What kind of "everything" hurts, Wrath?