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technically since i've battled depression all my life... it's never really been joyful... but i used to get excited about it because it was something i found fun... but as i had more stress build up and got deeper into depression it kinda just wasn't something i could get excited about... kinda like my birthday....
but with the nonstop music, people around me making a big deal out of nothing, the sometimes excessive decorating (though some excessiveness has been impressive), the nonstop holiday reruns of tv shows.... it's more annoying than joyful and just isn't worthwhile to me...