Rants: Everyday Venting

[Dax Declan]

im so ready to **censor** cry, in fact i am already. Im just not able to have friends apparently. I just essentially lost every online friend i have. All i do is **censor** up. To add onto all this im being pushed away by the person i love more than anything in the world because I **censor** up.

[Trixsie Vixen]

I've been sick on and off for months, this latest bug has had me in a bad way for weeks now and 6 days into antibiotics I'm still sick.

I just hate been unable to breathe.

[[INACTIVE]]

im so ready to **censor** cry, in fact i am already. Im just not able to have friends apparently. I just essentially lost every online friend i have. All i do is **censor** up. To add onto all this im being pushed away by the person i love more than anything in the world because I **censor** up.

Hey. If you need someone to talk to please send me a PM. I know how it feels and it sucks. Please contact me if you need anything, good vibes coming to you mate.

[Dax Declan]

I figured I'd feel better about the ordeal from earlier but I don't. I feel even worse. I don't know how I'm gonna get through the day tomorrow. I feel so drained and pathetic. i guess I'm just not meant to have friends. Every Friend I have I chase off one way or another. Whether it's here, in real life, or just anywhere else online.

[Rocco Rex]

I'm sick and tired of my dad's bullshit. Chicago passed 500 people murdered a few days ago. A normal person would be unhappy. What does he do? He gets excited and celebrates that they passed 500 and hopes for more dead. Almost every day he gives me the updated count like I'm supposed to be HAPPY people are DYING in record numbers. He's hoping that they'll pass 1,000 dead this year. Are you **censor** kidding me? You are happy about and want more, hundreds more, people dead!?! Black gang bangers are people too, and there are more than just them getting killed.
The worst thing about this? I have four younger brothers. They're being brought up in this. And there is absolutely nothing I can do about it. They're already showing signs of being brainwashed by dad and his shit.

[Jane]

I've chosen that my future means more to me than anything. I refuse to end up like they did I will work and be successful I will gladly accept the sacrifices
 Losing those that meant so much to me long ago. We have our own agendas now.

[Dax Declan]

I hate myself so much. All I do is **censor** up. I'm a shitty person who does nothing but **censor** up relationships and push people away. This is why I'm gonna be a loser who dies alone.

[Rocco Rex]

Well, at least I had a little while to relax before everything heated up again
Home's very tense again, thanks to dad I'm in trouble college wise AGAIN, and now thanks to him, there's a new blip on my radar: legal trouble. Granted, the legal trouble will probably just go away, but it's on my radar, so it has me REALLY worried. Oh, and he might have just started a war with the neighbors. As in dogs might start dying war.
They'd better not because you do NOT touch MY dogs. Period.

[kalan]

I love it when people are like hey how are you doing then when i respond they dont say nothing for weeks. Thanks i need that for my self esteem. If you're not gonna talk to me then just dont all together

[Wolxikin]

7am: tired
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3pm: tired
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I get between 7-10 hours of sleep every night why am I like this

[Alistair]

Public housing is just lovely when you can hear people fighting in the parking lot at night. Housing has given three, yes three, memos and had one meeting about tenants not getting along and they're still fighting. I'm just trying to live a quiet life with my mate.

[★Amethyst★]

7am: tired
8am: tired
9am: tired
10am: tired
11am: tired
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1pm: tired
2pm: tired
3pm: tired
4pm: tired
5pm: tired
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10pm: tired
11pm: tired
12pm: tired

I get between 7-10 hours of sleep every night why am I like this

I've been really tired the past few weeks too, but in my case I've been getting maybe 6 hours of sleep a night. I keep falling asleep on the bus, and while I've never missed my stop yet it's only a matter of time. This is the first time I'm working while going to school so that may be a big reason.

I might try drinking a little more coffee I guess. Energy drinks have zero effect on me.

[The Past]

I've been waking up a lot during the night the past week or so. Often for no apparent reason, but other times I have some sort of dream that makes me uneasy so I can't fall back asleep right away. I haven't really had outright nightmares, though. My dad has been having similar trouble, but that's more due to stress from family drama. I haven't been deep in that stuff, so I doubt it has anything to do with mine.

[Dax Declan]

I'm really worried about my cat. She's still recovering from the past few dog attacks and isn't doing well. They knocked out most of her teeth so she can't eat hard food anymore,and now she won't use her litter box and she isn't drinking much. She's covered in  fleas and I don't know what to do. I just wanna cry. I already lost my best friend last year, I don't wanna lose her too.

[Rocco Rex]

Every single time I have a good day, it ends really bad.
Oh, and now my depression is coming back. Lovely,, just lovely