No you wont! think positive Macid
oh and kodachi. It's okay dude, if they turned you down, then they're missing out. you just gotta pick yourself back up, shrug it off and be cool about it. It's not the easiest thing to do I know, but once you've done it, then you'll start to feel better, then who knows, next time you might succeed. You can't fail if you keep trying.