So....I don't know where to begin. I'm straight, I like girls, or well a girl in particular. Ok there's a Valentine's Day dance this Friday at my school. There's this girl in particular that I want to ask but I'm afraid of rejection. Isn't there a phobia for that? But don't think that if I'm rejected life will continue. No, word will spread and my friends will tease me, not for rejection, but for even asking her. Not many people like her. When I first joined that her team, (I was moved into Gifted.) I hated her, because I like her. I tend to be a bit rude to girls I like to not attract attention that I like them, it's weird and accidental. Then one day, she pops up and asks some questions about me so I do the same and learn that she's a chill person. She always laughs at my jokes even if they're not funny ones, even if I don't laugh. She also gives me small, intentionally harmless punches when I tease her. In a period I look back and catch her staring at me and in another period I find myself staring at her. She moves her hair to the left side of her shoulder and I see the right side of my face. When she catches me I start hyperventilating feeling like a creeper. Now, I can't decide rejection and embarrasment or bravery. I wouldn't mind helpful advice from the guys but ladies and girls, can you tell me what this stuff means? How do I go about this?
I realize how long this post is, I'm kinda stressed out.
Think you got skill like I do? I'm sorry you've been lied to.