Me currently, I doubt that someone will stick my pieces together.
God... I do so feel you.
The best analogy I can come up with is the Cyst I currently have in my left leg. It feels benign most of the time, but it grows, like a cancer.It may get a bit smaller sometimes, but it's always there. And then, it REALLY hurts sometimes, when it's triggered by something.
So all in all, being lonely sucks.