Just something that's been kind of bothering me recently.
It seems like nobody actually cares if I stay in their life or not. I constantly am seeing tons of people who other people love to be with/would die for. But for me, it's like I hardly matter to most of my friends. Most of the time they pretty much forget I exist and I'm the one who has to call them to do anything. For example, today my friend called me:
Friend: "hey dude me and *other friend* want to know if you have your car tonight so we don't have to walk"
Me: "uh...no it's in the shop"
Friend "oh damn.." *hangs up*.
To me it's like there's some big thing everyone has that makes them interesting and worth spending time with that I just missed out on. I even think that I give off this vibe online, because most people couldn't care less if I talk to them or not, and when I do I receive one word answers. I don't know, maybe it's just teenage angst, but I've always felt insignificant in other people's lives.