I\'m drowning

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I'm moving out of my house and going to live with my boyfriend. I'm really scared.
 
The school put me under suicide watch...
 
I'm being forced to go home to my parents, who will only yell at me for being a worthless spoiled brat who only thinks about herself and tell me that's why I do these things... I don't want them to be mad but they undoubtably already are....
 
I'm really lost right now, I don't wanna go home in a few minutes to be yelled at and have the house turned into a concentration camp...so much is happening my tiny brain is going to implode.

Post Merge: November 09, 2011, 09:18:32 PMSomeone please say something....

[Ares the Ram]

if your parents think in such a way about you, then you shouldnt go to them. Doing that wont help at all. I'd recommend going with your boyfriend

[[Sov]]

Why have you been placed on watch? How can they force you to do anything? And when are you moving with your boyfriend/why are you scared?

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My boyfriend didn't come, he wants me to travel to him, but that's going to be really difficult.

Life is really difficult for me right now with my mind being as messed up as it is, and having even simple tasks like trying to get a job prove difficult...I grow more and more drifty all the time...I feel like I'm dreaming and I need to wake up.

I wish I knew how to be happy and awake like normal people.

[MinxKitty]

Try to live through the stuff with your parents, and concentrate on getting stuff sorted out so you can move out, whether with your boyfriend or somewhere else.  You need to keep focus.  Keep looking for a job, no matter how hard it gets!  And try and find yourself a hobby.  The more free time you have, the more down you are going to get.  You are normal m'darling, dont let anyone tell you different.  I used to have similar problems, it will get better.  Chin up m'dear
xx

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My parents and I started a pact that should make life more bearable at home, I'm actually starting to feel better already, just hope I don't relapse...

Right now I'm most concerned about my boyfriend...our contact is so little, he does't leave me messages...I'm afraid about what he's feeling on his end. I'm trying to cling onto him the best I can, but  we're still not getting the contact we need.