Lucky to be alive, unlucky to be me

[Karma Moonshadow]

Just need to vent a bit...
Back in January I had a massive brain aneurysm that almost killed me, and had several brain surgeries and stuff put in my head. I only recently finally got out of the hospital. But now I can't drive or even go upstairs to my room, and my short term memory is messed up pretty bad. And I remember everything in my life before the aneurysm only as if it had been a dream, not real life. Well, since I can't do anything anymore my mom has guardianship over me, and alot of times it seems like she is abusing that power. I don't even have control over what music I listen to, what movies I watch, what books I read, or what video games I play. I'm 21 and alot of things that should rightfully be my decision are not anymore, and for how long is unknown. I feel like I'm in a cage, helpless. My best friend just moved to another state, so I don't even have anyone to talk to about it. I'm really depressed. Just throwing this out there in case anyone can relate or has any comforting words to spare.

[Ares the Ram]

We wont move away Dander. You'll always have us. *hugs*

[Karma Moonshadow]

Thanks *hugs*  

[Kaprika]

i know what its like to feel in a cage because of a handicap. im 22 and injured my back badly. i need a cane most of the time to walk, and im pretty much limited to my apartment. and cant work. so i have to ENTIRELY rely on my mate to support me, and that puts me in a situation where i often dont get any say in what financialy happens. what we eat, where we go out on dates, how the bills get payed, what the kitchen gets stocked with, what entertainment we buy, ect. and since i dont work. im sorta him and my roomates "maid" in a manner of speaking.

i certainly dont mind pulling my own weight. but from the moment they come home its kat do this, kat do that, kat can you bring me this, kat can you wash that for me, kat whats for dinner, kat can you take care of this for me, kat could you clean off the table. i feel like since i dont work, they figure THEY work...so i should do everything else around the apartment to make up for it.

i dont know if this is really the same scenario...but i DO feel your pain. i really feel for you, (and i have AWFUL memory too. i may as well be missin a part of my brain with how bad my memory is)

[NeeChee_coyote]

I didnt read it cuz i have no patience fer anything longer than three lines x3 (sorry) but i hope you feel better -snuggles-

[Karma Moonshadow]

i dont know if this is really the same scenario...but i DO feel your pain. i really feel for you

It is the same, in alot of ways. Thanks, I don't feel quite so alone now.

[Kaprika]

then im really glad i can give you even a little peice of mind.

PM me if you ever need someone to talk to

[ArcticSkyWolf]

*snuggles

it's going to be fine 

[Karma Moonshadow]

Thanks I appreciate all the love.

[maggintons]

proof us furries have very interesting lives..........heres another furry drama..........someone threatened to stab me once...


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WingedZephyr

[Blackfang1002]

 -=Warning=-  Blackfang is getting personal so he may get alittle emo. :'(

I can understand how you feel as for the loneliness and feelings of isolation. I joined the military to be an MP back when I was 17. I went to basic and did all that fun stuff and ended up becoming a sniper and a good one at that. I had a promising career as a soldier and there was even talk of promiting me to a leadership position. Unfortunately there was an accident. I fell from a steep incline and injured my left ankle and hit my head pretty bad. A medic was called and I was shipped to the nearest hospital. They couldnt do much for me so they sent me home with an honorable discharge. I have severe nerve damage in my left foot and my memory is fuzzy at times. Its hard to walk on my own and I aggrivate people sometimes because I forget what I was supposed to at times. Work is very slim for me and I live off of my disability income. My so called friends decided I was lying about my injuries and said I was using it as an excuse. They all left me after a very hurtful fight and very nasty rumors. One rumor was about my house that burned down. They told everyone I did it. So now people I knew back in high school give me dirty looks. I cant go to my favorite clubs anymore because of my injury and because I know theyll be there. But you cant let these things get to you. You have to keep moving and dont look back.

If you need someone to talk to I'm here. I understand how you feel so if you ever feel down then just send me a message.

[Karma Moonshadow]

Thanks... sounds like you understand about lies and rumors too, which I'm also familiar with. Not looking back is hard to do but sometimes there's no choice.

[Blackfang1002]

Thanks... sounds like you understand about lies and rumors too, which I'm also familiar with. Not looking back is hard to do but sometimes there's no choice.

No prob. Unfortunately we all have little reminders that keep us tied to the past. My leg is a constant reminder of what could have been and what will never be. But it's our ability to push through them and still smile that truly helps us to be strong. I know you'll be okay. I think you and your mom need to have a discussion about how her actions are making you feel. She can't control every moment of your life because that'll just cause bigger problems down the road. Whether it be your relationship with your family or the gradual depression that you've already said has started to bother you. She needs to let you do what makes you happy.

Post Merge: July 11, 2011, 02:13:34 AM

proof us furries have very interesting lives..........heres another furry drama..........someone threatened to stab me once...


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WingedZephyr

Oh wow. That bones. What on Earth caused someone to threaten you? Was it a random dude or was it someone you know?

[Karma Moonshadow]

I've tried discussing it... she lives by double standards though. I'm apparently not allowed to talk to her about anything that involves her, no matter how nicely put. It's always been that way, but ever since the aneurysm she also treats me like my thoughts and opinions don't matter anymore. Being a control freak is her nature, always was. But it won't always be that way because I won't always be helpless, even if she wants me to be...
I appreciate the encouragement though.

[Blackfang1002]

I've tried discussing it... she lives by double standards though. I'm apparently not allowed to talk to her about anything that involves her, no matter how nicely put. It's always been that way, but ever since the aneurysm she also treats me like my thoughts and opinions don't matter anymore. Being a control freak is her nature, always was. But it won't always be that way because I won't always be helpless, even if she wants me to be...
I appreciate the encouragement though.

Just shoot me a PM if you ever need someone to vent to. In the mean time focus on your recovery and relax. One day I'm sure she'll realize what she's doing.