My mom found out about my cutting. ...she yelled at me, and is going to tell my father, who will not only yell at me but probably take away all that I own. They are going to tell the whole family about it, and also about my being a Satanist, which is going to make my aunt, who is a devout Christian, absolutley blow up on me. They are going to get me counseling I don't particularly want.
I know they feel that they just want to help and protect me because they are worried.
What they don't realize is that doing this is going to ruin my life. My aunts, my grandmother, they cannot handle knowing these things about me. I am going to become the family black sheep. My Christian aunt is either going to try and do a serious conversion with me to get me away from Satanism, or she is going to make sure to stay far away from me and keep my beloved cousins away from me too.
If they take away my things, I WILL steal them back...in fact I can see myself violently demanding their returrn.
I love my parents, they love me, they just want to protect me and mean well...but they have no idea how to treat me like an adult. In mom's words "I'm going to treat you like an adult now....so I'm going to tell everyone in the family about your Satanism and what you did so they can watch over you" kind of backwards logic right?
I'm 18 years old. Can't they let me deal with my own problems on my own instead of babying me like I am still that depressed little 14 year old. They think something's wrong with me when I'm actually quite happy and pleased in life.
But if my family disowns me like this, if everyone I love is turned against me for NO REASON, when nothing is wrong with me, and I just cut a little when I was angry (at my parents go figure) and forgot to put back the knife....I can't cope with that. I'll have to drop out of school, move out, run away, whatever I need to do. I refuse to commit suicide because I know that that would hurt everyone I love more, and that my boyfriend would kill himself in return. But my reaction to my family turning on me is going to be pretty extreme.
I'm so scared. Please someone help me, tell me what to do...
I need help fast, before my laptop is stolen from me.