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Re: I gotta tell someone
« Reply #15 on: December 26, 2010, 06:27:37 PM »
yooooooooooou know it! ^^
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Re: I gotta tell someone
« Reply #16 on: December 26, 2010, 09:19:16 PM »
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Re: I gotta tell someone
« Reply #17 on: December 29, 2010, 08:13:19 AM »
update: I want someone to kill me so I dont have to be a zombie anymore. (point out the irony and Ill hate you)  I can survive on my own just fine, infact, thats how I want to live. But I want to have someone to share my life with, a girlfriend who cares about me and vice versa. I cant have that thanks to the teachings of my parents.

I really wish I could stop being a perfectionist. I really wish I could. I wish It didnt matter if I messed up. If I dont keep trying to be perfect, I lose everything. I have to keep going or I die. Its programmed into me, do you understand!? I NEED to be perfect! I want to cry right now. I want to break down and cry like theres no tomorrow, but I have to be strong, and for who? Who am I supporting that needs so much strength? I dont have anyone else. theres no-one else to share my burden and even if there was, I wouldnt let them because I gotta carry my own weight. I cant accept help no matter what. I wish it didnt ******* matter!


Its like being trapped in a cage with a lion that mauls you every time something happens. you could open the door with the key, but it would attack everyone else too so you cant. Its so ******* horrible!

I cant talk to someone. I cant let it out. nothing can compare to physically letting it out by screaming and ranting about it. I cant to that because thats perfect, I cant remember why.  thats too ******* perfect! I cant remember how to talk about my problems. oh wait! thats because guess what? Im not supposed to talk about my problems because my dad said "dont say youre sorry, just dont do it again." You may have raised me so I can survive and live in the world, but godammit im a ******* monster now! nice, now Im having suicidal thoughts, thats great. know what the worst part is? Ill forget all this tomorrow. Ill be fine tomorrow.  Angry  <<<times a million


Why do I have to be the one who wants to suffer!?
« Last Edit: December 29, 2010, 08:15:29 AM by Macid »
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Re: I gotta tell someone
« Reply #18 on: December 29, 2010, 03:09:09 PM »
hey, why don't you add some of us(if the others ones) to talk a bit? IF you want to talk with me, say it so, i'll pm my msn but, go easy with words, i'm still learning ;)
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Re: I gotta tell someone
« Reply #19 on: December 29, 2010, 03:52:43 PM »
Oh dear, Macid, I'm so sorry to read this... I reallty wish I could be more of a help to you.
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Re: I gotta tell someone
« Reply #20 on: December 29, 2010, 07:07:56 PM »
Quote from: Macid on December 29, 2010, 08:13:19 AM
update: I want someone to kill me so I dont have to be a zombie anymore. (point out the irony and Ill hate you)  I can survive on my own just fine, infact, thats how I want to live. But I want to have someone to share my life with, a girlfriend who cares about me and vice versa. I cant have that thanks to the teachings of my parents.

I really wish I could stop being a perfectionist. I really wish I could. I wish It didnt matter if I messed up. If I dont keep trying to be perfect, I lose everything. I have to keep going or I die. Its programmed into me, do you understand!? I NEED to be perfect! I want to cry right now. I want to break down and cry like theres no tomorrow, but I have to be strong, and for who? Who am I supporting that needs so much strength? I dont have anyone else. theres no-one else to share my burden and even if there was, I wouldnt let them because I gotta carry my own weight. I cant accept help no matter what. I wish it didnt ******* matter!


Its like being trapped in a cage with a lion that mauls you every time something happens. you could open the door with the key, but it would attack everyone else too so you cant. Its so ******* horrible!

I cant talk to someone. I cant let it out. nothing can compare to physically letting it out by screaming and ranting about it. I cant to that because thats perfect, I cant remember why.  thats too ******* perfect! I cant remember how to talk about my problems. oh wait! thats because guess what? Im not supposed to talk about my problems because my dad said "dont say youre sorry, just dont do it again." You may have raised me so I can survive and live in the world, but godammit im a ******* monster now! nice, now Im having suicidal thoughts, thats great. know what the worst part is? Ill forget all this tomorrow. Ill be fine tomorrow.  Angry  <<<times a million


Why do I have to be the one who wants to suffer!?


hey macid

1) dont worry about finding a girl friend iam sure you will find one that likes your for who you are. ( i dont have a girl friend eather so your not alone there )
2) how you are felling right now is conman during the winter session when there is less sunlight  try to get a sun lamp or take vitamin D supplements these can help make you fell better
3) i know how this fells when **** hits the fan you need something to cover your self with. those fellings might not last to long
4) try to clear your mind or take a walk out side this may help you fell better
5) if u need any qoutes that can help you clear your mind pm me and ill share them with you ( these usually help ) 


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Re: I gotta tell someone
« Reply #21 on: December 31, 2010, 04:24:44 AM »
guess what time it is? update time!


I got closure on my cat being taken away from me so thats good.
My parents response to my yelling at them about my problems was that they raised me good enough that I can live on my own. By that reasoning, I dont need them anymore, and thus, do not care about them any more  ^_^

The only problem that leaves me with is a girlfriend. This ones harder because I dont believe in second chances for true love. I dont want to hurt anyone with "fleeting love"
It pretty much boils down to I believe deep down that I have to meet the right girl the first time.
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Re: I gotta tell someone
« Reply #22 on: December 31, 2010, 07:14:27 AM »
dang macid.   thts to perfect bro.  yea gotta let tht one go cause meeting the perfect one on your first go is nearly impossible  :/ It could happen but its likely it wont.  im not saying your a bad guy, thts jus how life is with a prossesing mind and all.  But yea gotta cheer up over all.  if you dont, you will only become angrier and start literally living a hell no one would want. 
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Re: I gotta tell someone
« Reply #23 on: December 31, 2010, 07:19:15 AM »
Im already there Buddy. Its not fun, I barely laugh anymore. Id like to let it go Buddy, but its so lonely. The only way im going to make progress is to let it out, and by that I mean take an axe to something and tear it to shreds. Anyone know where I can buy an axe?
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Re: I gotta tell someone
« Reply #24 on: December 31, 2010, 03:45:54 PM »
macid try pant ball its a good was to fell better.... about finding the right girl iven been single for 5 yrs and no mate and iam fine i belive that ever one will find the right mate  one day
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