Pea's Recovery

[kylethefox]

if you enjoy them, video games are a great distraction and they help with stress (for some people) if you find a certain video game is very stressful but you want to play it, try listening to music while you play it, that seems to blow off alot of that stress, i have a massive list of great video games to play if you want, but if video games aren't your thing mabye try drawing more or roleplaying or listening to music! thats all i can think of right now! >w<

[Brigand]

I'm an alcoholic and I'll be honest - don't expect to quit it here and now. I know people who went through rehab and returned to drinking after years of being sober. No one knows whether you'll be sober for the rest of your life or you'll get hammered out of boredom. Here are some tips:
1. Try to gradually limit the amount of alcohol that you normally consume, don't try to immediately become fully abstinent
2. Distraction like games and movies is a good idea, but try to avoid ones that involve drinking alcohol
3. Don't give up if you'll end up being completely wasted, just try again and again. It's not easy
4. Do it for yourself. Stop drinking to live longer without regretting saying some dumb ass shit while you were drunk

I don't know your family or friends so I have no idea if asking them for help is a good thing. If they are supportive and are willing to actively help you then go ahead and ask them for help and support. Be honest with it, don't sugar coat it.
Alcoholism can be as bad as drug addiction. It's **censor** hard to quit it, but you can do it if you really want to.

That's it, there are no magical 100% effective solutions to that. I know it sucks and staying sober will be a pain in the ass for a very long time. Good luck mate.

[Pea]

Thank you Brigand for your support there. I've already dropped drinking cold turkey at the beginning of the year. I'm now two and a half months sober. It's less and less of a struggle, but I still find moments of intense urge to guzzle a drink. Even talking about it makes me crave... I'm getting through it so far. I'm now in possession of that laptop I mentioned and am using it now at a local cafe. I'm naming it my Creation Station. It's blank white, perfect for drawing on or placing stickers. The journey with this device is going to be grand, I can tell.

And thank you as well Ventus. I remember you from a few years back when I was last active here. My memory is quite poor though. Things are very vague. Back then I was only just beginning to fall into the grime of alcoholism. I'm 25 now. Had my first drink and got drunk at the age of 14. Got caught in a crowd of hoodlums two years later after living a sheltered life. From then on I drank at every opportunity, not that many presented themselves until later years. I joined here when I was 19 years old and just entering as I was collapsing into the worst depression of my life. There in a basement I stayed for 7 months living with nearly no contact to anyone outside the downstairs. I came out a different person certainly. A scalie absolutely. A monster totally, left utterly unprepared for a bright and terrible future. I had dread of my 21st hatchday to come. And I was damned the day it did.


 I don't actually remember that day, and not because of my poor memory. It was then the gates were sent swinging wide open into the second most difficult struggle of my life. Eventually any and all creativity or inspiration to do anything I once loved more than nearly anything else disappeared almost entirely. My life became something I was trapped in, dark and alone. I wasn't me anymore. More and more I fell deeper into this sickness. This plummet continued up until January 2nd, to be honest. I had made a resolution passively to make 2017 my big year. To finally wake up, sober up and get up. I immediately failed that, and something clicked.

Here we are now. I really hope that through all of this, I never did any of you any harm. If I have, I am trying to atone for it. To any of you who I may have hurt or wronged, I can't explain how sorry I am enough. My shame is great and heavy, and is probably the most difficult thing I am dealing with at this stage. I ask forgiveness and nothing more. Evna, Ventus, Trixsie, I am so sorry.

[Ventus Fall]

Hey there again, Pea

Wow, you remember me? x3 I remember seeing you around and I checked any artworks you would post. Other than that I can't recall we actually talked with each other? Either way, I'm actually happily surprised you remember me ;D

You have no need to apologise to me. To my knowledge you haven't hurt me in any way. Anything that you are doing is now for yourself, but in a good way. And it should be. You're learning to deal with things and gaining experience. That's what life is about in my eyes; Gaining experience and learning from mistakes to become a better person.
I can't speak for the others, of course, but I hope that's one less burden for you from my side.

As of which: Congrats for being 2,5 months sober. If anything does happen or you are struggling, please don't hesitate to talk with me/us/anyone else, ok?

[kalan]

Intense urges to drink are normal youre brain is full of a chemical only found in alcoholics called THIQ. The full name is a long fancy word i dont know how to spell lol but it causes your brain to wamt alcohol. If you ever wanna study up on it type THIQ into google and prepare to read. The good news is the chemical goes dorminant after awhile if you starve it of alcohol


Through the five years ive heard one day at a time so many times and its absolutely true all you can do is one day at a time. Congratulations on 2 and a half months