Before I get a comment stating it should be a personal diary: I have looked at this option but here it seems more suitable.
It's one of those f.-all feelings.
I moved from an appartment to an house, back in the "suburbs" and I have to get back used to that feeling of living here. No longer hearing cars but birds instead and other things. Ironically enough it doesn't calm me down at all, it stresses me out to be able to "relax".
Funny thing is that I felt more relaxed doing exams and just being busy, now therapy is coming along nicely but the void I have now of not having any kind of works allow me to think about past events causing any stress and other choices...