*trigger warning -- abusive family matters and transphobia.*
Howdy. I'm not really sure how to open this but here it goes.
I'm a transgender male (meaning I was born biologically female but now identify as male). I pass extremely well, even with shaggy hair, and haven't really run into any issues with peers minus the occasional schoolyard bullying. But that's not the issue, it's my family.
My mother is pretty accepting, she has her moments where she's absolutely intolerable of my feelings but for the most part, she cares and strives to help me live my life as I should be. But my father, on the other hand, is horrible and here's where the story begins.
A few days ago, my mom comes home from our old house with a few boxes and my video games for our new apartment. She's visibly upset and since I'm a totally momma's boy, I fawn over her and hug her till she tells me what's up. My father is an unstable heavy drinker and abuser, he has a history of abusing both of us and going out of his way to ruin our lives. So my mom tells me what happened when she went over and it went like this -- my mom goes over and my father is very very drunk and starts basically ranting on how he wants to 'cure' me. A lot of his comments are very disturbing to me, even if I did hear them secondhand. It sounds a lot like he wants to rape me to 'cure' me from being a boy, or force me to work and beat me if I don't. He made many comments on kidnapping me to 'take me to my treatment' and freaked both me and my mom out. She's forbid me to see him (as if I wanted to ever) and pretty much said that if my father ever tries to take me anywhere, I run like I'm never ran before.
I'm not looking for pity or anything of the like. I really don't know what I'm looking for, but I haven't really discussed this and it's starting to feel heavy or whatever. I'm not in danger or anything but still, I'm bothered.
Thanks for reading.
