Poems for the hurt

[Anklor, The Philosipher]

ive written these poems, Enjoy
"Kat"

I made the mistake
of asking you
when you clearly did not want me
and you clearly didnt need me
so i just began to bleed inside
from my feelings trying to hide
but they all exploded
and pushed me away from you
and all i wanted to do was die
to give my final goodbye
but i would not leave you
i tried too hard
and followed to much
so now im exiled
from your touch
your warm loving arms
and your beautiful smile
i can never have
because i went too many miles
wanting you to love me back
but all i got was a sickening sinking feeling
from being so daft
as to think you could be mine
but i was right in my head
you could never love me
im impossible to love
and youve shown me that
the hard way at best
but now i know
i was meant to be alone
for if my life was to be anything more
i would not be outside your doors
and i would not be alone
in this dark place i call home
but i am outside the walls of your heart
and i am still alone in this darkening void
so i guess ill just wait
for that sweet angel to take me away
im afraid you wont miss me
for i yiffed up
i never learnd
and so now im just muck
to you
your family
your friends too
but worst of all
I never belonged to you

Justin Mitchell, Forever Here For You To Take

"The World"

As I die,
From this lonely lack of sleep,
This empty stomach of fear,
I wonder why the people are happy
When life beats us down.
We try so hard
To make them smile
But they just believe our smiles are real,
So they don’t ask "What’s wrong? Why you so down?"
They just bicker and tease,
Like horrible clowns.
So we all die silently.
Waiting to die,
On a bed that’s so lonely,
With a stomach so dry.

[Joker Rose]

they are great keep up the good work

[Anklor, The Philosipher]

Thanks

"Becomeing the parent"

Normal people argue with their kids about THEM going out,
I argue with my mother about HER going out unexpectedly
I am becoming the parent
to a 7 year old brother
that am begining to loathe
because i watch him all the time
when all my friends are begging
For me to come and hangout
but i cant because my mother "needs" me
so i just wait till i can no longer stand it
and i snap and lash out at all
because im getting lonlier every night
and the searing pain the lonliness brings
is becoming too much to bear
but my tolerance is strong
and my will reinforced
i will wait for my freedom
to come and take me away
My old friends are leaving me
to wither and die
and my new friends are begining worry
that each night the knife gets closer to my wrist
But its not the knife they should worry about
its my sanity
for thats what im losing slowly
with each lonely night
so everyday i contomplate ending it
but i resist
and i dont for them
because i put them before me
and so my mind kills my heart slowly
and with each passing lonely night
the parenting gene becomes more and more loathed
and the urge to end it stronger
but im becoming the parent
and i wont let the knife get me
so i wait for someone to come and save me
from a house thats so lonely
in a town so clueless
with scared friends
and abandoning assholes
so now i wait
for you to save me
and becoming the parent
is becoming the dead

Justin Mitchell

"Friends?"

We all have friends,
thats what they say
but mine abandon me
for reasons one should not
and so now
i feel betrayed
for my friends of old
have began to hate me
for things i had no control over
so now they have invoked my hatred
upon themselves
and i am the crippler
if i hate you
that hate runs deep
and will always be
until you repent
or right your wrongs
the past will stand true
i will destroy those whom hurt me
whether it be emotionaly
or physicaly
you have brought this upon yourself
but dont expect mercy
because i have lost that
in my dark up bringing
i had no parents
to guide me
so i did not learn
to court correctly
or to be kind to all
i give justice to those whom deserve it
and torture to those who Deserve it
but to those i truely love
i cannot feel anger towards
or be dissappointed with
but for those whom i only associate with
your all fair game
and i will do as your actions towards my beloved and me Dictates
if you deserve to be destroyed
i will not hesitate
but if you need advice and guidance
look to me
but i will not be kind and sugar coat it
you well get the RAW truth
and you well see the darkness i do
but the true question is
Are we friends?

Justin Mitchell

"The Mistakes of the youth"

"Smoke it just once, For me?"
"Ok, I don't see any harm in it."
You should have burnt your eyes out
instead of opening the gateway
your life is now just a High-To-High affair
You opened the door and you found your Cocaine
your heroin
your meth
All these feelings
Your Shrooms
Your Angel dust
But all your doing is causing your body to rust
you became the Addict
The Crack Whore
Now you parents kicked you out till you kick the habit
but your dealer lets you stay there
and you become the little drug pet
Now your selling your body
to get your next fix
you think that there is nothing wrong
With the Tequila your drinking
but all your doing
is committing suicide
a long, painful, suicidal tangent
isn't it hard to belive
this all started by saying "Ok"
you thought nothing of it
but that person didn't love you
they just wanted to get you hooked
so they could get their next fix
but you didn't listen
to those cops and social workers
now you dropped out
you are living in a methlab
you smoked one joint
drank one beer
and look,
your here
in that inevitable circle
that one party
one mistake
one joint
one beer
took you all the way here
to the hell of a drug addict
you live fix to fix
High to High
Dose to Dose
and each time
the amount gets to be more and more
till your body finally throws in the towel
you haven't slept in days
you body is in a searing pain
and its all because
you opened the gateway

Justin Mitchell

[Dr. Strange]

:sparkle: OOOHHH!! pwetty! :sparkle:

[Joker Rose]

see im not the only talented one great stuff keep it comin

[Anklor, The Philosipher]

thank you
some of these next ones are in german
i love the language so
heres a translator
http://dictionary.reference.com/translate/

"abandoned"

If you ever felt lost
alone
abandoned
you must know
if you ask
and they are true
they will come
they will chase the demons away
they will numb the pain
and you will wish them to stay
but they must go
for their warm beds are calling
and you must wait another day
for your personal angels
to come out and play

Justin Mitchell

"Broken"

If i was broken
i wouldnt have such control
if i was broken
i wouldnt love
i wouldnt let you in
but im perfectly fine
im like a steel box
that never rusts
but the pain starts to get to me
as you beat me against the walls of my heart
this heart of stone
has a diamond center
and that diamond
has the tinge of gold
and so
your petty words cannot break
What my heart has survived to make

Justin Mitchell

"Why?"

Why do you ignore me?
When the pain of being alone Bores down
like a drill on high
Why Don't you ever stop,
and go deeper than just actions and looks
Why dont they take the personality
and not the actions
the looks
the Physical
Why dont they go deeper
than the others confusion
and mistakes
and Accept the person as they truely are
and will always be
Why doesnt she love me?

Justin Mitchell

"Alone"

Im tired of being alone
outcast, hated
just for being sad
but i cant help
that you all just ignored me
and let it escalate
to me wishing dead
but i dont want to be dead
but i also hate being alone
even when surrounded by my friends
i feel alone
for the warmth inside my heart
has noone willing
to fuel its dieing flame
but there are few
whos day to day actions
keep me feeling needed and loved
but in the end
i will not allow myself to be lonely
i will not allow my heart to fear
i will not allow my mid to push me down
and i will be positive
and i will hope
that someone i love takes the lonliness away
and i realize
that not all i love will love me back
but in that case
its they who lack
for if they do not love me
than why bother with trying for thee?
one should not have to try
for love will find you in due time
and if the love you give is true and pure
the person you give it to will feel as you
and keep you close
forever near
and if they leave you and never return
your love wasnt true
and your heart will burn
but the love you need will find you one day
and keep you forever
locked away
in their hearts
in their minds
forever theirs
yours
and mine

Justin Mitchell

"Love"

They Said Forever
You Hoped So
Than Another Came Unintentionaly
And you Kept that one
just to be left as soon as it began
But your friends didnt think
they would leave so soon
so they made you give up
the one whom swooned you
And they threatend your life
your exsistance
if you didnt leave that one whom you loved
and now
after that person LEFT YOU
Your Friends that threatend
began to hate you
for something you didnt do
and now the lonliness bores in
ripping your heart
tearing your skin
Love is Hell
because it chooses for you
and those whom you love
almost never love you

Justin Mitchell, After a sad, Hard Realizeation

translate em into german than back
its kinda funny

[Joker Rose]

again good and the german wasent hard to fallow i know some of it and the rest is just contex so its all good but again great stuff

[Anklor, The Philosipher]

ARGH
"The Devourer"

Your outer shell of beauty
Covers an empty abyssal heart
You Are the devourer
You lured me in
With Care and compasion
But when i gave you my heart you trampled it
You squashed it
You ate it
You Chewed me up and spat me out
I gave you love
And you chose another
I am the one
You are the fool
I will be here
When your little world comes down around you
And i will be waiting with open arms
And I will ignore your past sins
For love true
And from none other than you
You are now after another
Stealing him from one of your friends
And i see this wrong
I will cut your cords if you do not think
I will tell those whom it concerns
And i will make sure the devourer
Devours no more

Justin Mitchell

"If He Didn't"

If he didn't love you
he wouldn't have stayed
If he didnt love you
He wouldn't have forgiven you
For breaking his heart once
If he didnt love you
he wouldn't have pledged to wait
For you to choose him
If he didnt love you
You wouldn't mean more than anything in the world To him
If he didnt love you
He wouldnt be there when you needed him most
If he didnt love you
He wouldnt change only for you
If he didnt love you
He wouldnt help you when you asked
If her didnt love you
He wouldnt be alive

For Kat
From Justin

"The Question"

It has become
A Heartbreaking affair
Another Day
Another thing becomes clear
And today
It appeared to me
That She
Is not caring enough
To see how she will hurt her friend
and
that she will never love me
she will take a man
from another
and i sit in wait
to see what i should do
Should i tell the other
That her man is going to leave her for another
Or do i wait and see
do i hope that the other will love me for telling her
Or do i just expect a slap and another hatred
Do i try to convince her
that he is not worth it
that he is just going to leave her
for the one i wanted
and then
do i ask her to be mine
or am i just to sit and watch
as another heart is shatterd
and do i just take the fact that i will always be alone
and just wait to die
What questions have the answer yes
and which are true
but the only question that really matters
is do i tell you?

Justin Mitchell

"The Warcry"

I feel the warcry
Coursing through my veins
I can tell that the ability to kill
Flows through my veins
But i have chosen
To be A warrior
Against the cruelness of the world
But if i snap
And cant bear the weight of the world any longer
Who will stop me
When that horrible ability comes to life
Who will come and help me cope
With all the pain thats built up over the years
Who will cme and say
"I'm Here Its Over, Its done. Come to me and fear no longer"
But im afraid that there are none
Who will come and stop the rage
For i would end up hurting
All those whom i cherish most
And as my sanity ticks away
Ever insult building
I see visions in my head
Of hands tightening
Riping
And twisting
Killing them with my bear hands
All those laughing Devourers
Eating at my soul
Killing in my Blood
Death in my soul
In this crisis
Of life and death
I wish to find
My saving breath
The one who will come
And take the voices away
That one person
Who will warm my heart Again that day
But until then
I wait and wonder
When they will push me to far
And i will end
What they took for granted
I hear the warcry
And its calling my name

Justin Mitchell

"Warriors"

We are the warriors
We are not worthy
To kiss the ground
upon Wich they walk
And we would give
The shirts off our backs
The food from our stomachs
The fire from our hearth
Because we are the kind
The Just
The Fair
We are the nice ones
The ones they take for granted
The ones they never ask
"Whats Going on
Thats got you so down?"
They think we dont have any problems
as we help them with all theirs
But warriors once
Warriors all
We will fight
Till we fall
To make this world
a better place
Once and for all
We take the beatings
They all unknowingly dish out
and we all eventually
End up hating them all
Wishing them dead
So we all could just sit down
And solve our OWN problems
so we could be happy
but we punish ourselves
Because we arnt worthy
We dont want to compete
We all just want to live
In a peaceful Harmony
For we dont know how to compete
with this competitive world
and so we punish ourselves
Whether it be through
Eating disorders
Not letting them in
Cutting ourselves to forget the pain
Bleeding out
But then there are those
the ones like me
who just manifest hate
and give them advice
and then go home
wishing to die
but never do
for fear the ones they love
will die too
so we just stay
help the clueless
and wait
wait for loves true date
and we all just end up fighting
to keep ourselves from going under
but we all do just fine
that is
The ones whom choose to bite back
fight the competitors
and win with avengance
because these
are the beastly ones
the beast warriors
We are kind to those whom deserve it
and to those we love
and we BITE back
Back at the world
Back at the oppressors
and we help the other warriors too
but the beastly ones
are always beyond anyones help but their own
so they wait
for the day when their problems fall away
We are the warriors
and we fight till we die

Justin Mitchell

"WarCry"

The Drums Beat
We are going to war with ourselves
The WarCry Sounds
"FREEEEE THE BEAST"
At war over words how silly of thee

They Say that the words mean little
I say They are all liars
They say you have issues
I say they fear you
They said you were differnt
They were right

The Battle begins
The day we fight is at hand
The WarCry Sounds
"FREEEEE THE BEAST"
A war to free the ugliness inside thee

Death Comes for them
Because they didnt think
They swore at you, Trying to break
But you stood your ground and bit slowly back
But every word soaked in
And periced the soul, And like bullets they left holes

The Lightning crashes
The blood flashes
The Screams of pained warriors
"FREEEEE THE BEAST"
You've fought them off for the time being, but how long will it stay this way?

[Solo]

You Fought hard
Take a rest
But if you do
They will appear again, And attack your weak points
I'll fight them off

Then the day came
When Your Walls Snapped
And you killed those whom were careless and bit
You felt your vengence, oh so sweet
But, look at the pool of blood, lying at your feet
In your blind rage, you killed all, innocent alike
You killed those you loved, For the sins of others
You let your Beast out
And it bit you back

"Die Down With Me"

Die with me
Lie with me
Hang with me
Fly with me

You Brought my hopes straight up
Then you burnt them down
i wanted to be a good friend
So i didnt cry
when you said no
And i decided to go

Die down
Thoughts die down
Pains die down
Hates die down

Lets play a game
its called hide and cry
My feelings play it all the time
lets play a game
With knives

Stay with me
Play with me
Dance with me
kill with me

Killing is in my blood
but love is in my soul
hatred is devoid
when you hug me

Love me back
Take me back
Hate me back
pull me back

now i lay alone
waiting for you to take me
away to your heart
but you wont
because i wasnt "Good 'nuff"
**censor** that
Im better than you take

**censor** it
You are Wrong
I loved thee
But Thou didnt love me

Beauty i say
You say not
And im the one whos not good enough?
you know not what your blessed with

**censor** life
**censor** Death
**censor** love
Hatred is all of them

i wanted to be yours
but you will do anything to get who you want
you are becoming as souless as i
welcome to hell little girl

Your new home is here with me
Hopefully they dont hear you scream
When the beatings proceed
You think i was nice

You brought out the beast in me
now its time to die
You hurt me so
now your souless carcass goes

I am the devil
I am the Beast
If you hurt me
You're a dead one

I am here now
you dead and gone
you hurt me so
now that pain is gone

Gun to my head
finger twitches
trigger pulled
do they miss me

I hope so

"Given In"

Thats it
im done
its through
Ive given up on you
Love was not given
When love was due
I showed you kindness
And you ran me through
I gave you my heart
and you tore it in two
I was there
for you at all times
and what did you do
when i asked you
You said no
Because i was to clingy
And my boundaries not known
But what i dont understand
is why you dont go
any deeper than skin
any further than bone
I was there for you
When you told them the truth
And i refused to leave
When they thought i should go
I loved only you
Truly so
And you just pushed me away
I was in need of the love that has been devoid of my heart for so long
But you just stabed it and crushed
Your body i could care less about
It was your personality
that i loved you for
But if im not enough
Then who is
Im Sick of people just looking at the bad
when there is almost nothing but good
my faults were tiny
Miniscule at best
But you didnt take the time to think
About what i could be for you
You told me all your problems
And i helped them all
as best i could
but even then
you refused to love
and if you are so numb
to not see the pain in my eyes everytime you walk past me
to hug someone further away
than happiness will never find you
Hatred wont bore in
Not for you
But for life
i hate with a love fitting
You showed me religion
And i accepted it
For you
But this mattered not
you still dont care
Im just a pawn
the one you want
Is going to DESTROY another for you
but i did not have to make that sacrifice
and when you said you were going to end a relationship
i was willing to do
what i would never
Only for one
You
But that mattered not?
That i devoted
Gave second chances
hid my sadness
Only for you
Because you couldnt stand to see my pain
That you threw upon my heart and soul
You thought i was down on myself
When you did naught to help me
I was there
in you hour of need
Yet you give no love
to one whom has waited
for 13 long years
for ANY type of love
for I recived none
naught any from parents
friends of old
And what i got for opening my soul
A beating of cold hatred
not direct hate from thee
but a cold
empty stare
devoid of Care
And if you can be so bold
as to stop and think of how you've hurt me so
but i know you will just go
Im sorry
God
Get over it
But i cant
after you hurt me so
Now i let go
Ive given in
To misery
to hate
to rage
to the PAIN
I will stop trying
You gave me the signs
there was never any use in trying
So when you finaly realize your mistakes
ill belong to someone else
and i will not see pitty for thou
you made the choice
and failed to see the signs
Kat,
You chose the path of the devourer
and i was your first victim
i hope your happy
because im dead inside

Justin Mitchell You Had Your Chance

[Paxari]

A wise man once said, " In times of great change, even the greatest of the great fall", this is what we witnessed here. Death is not release, Bleeding not stress control, acting out for attention not the path to Power.  Take every punch life throws at you and return fire.

[Dr. Strange]

A wise man once said, " In times of great change, even the greatest of the great fall", this is what we witnessed here. Death is not release, Bleeding not stress control, acting out for attention not the path to Power.  Take every punch life throws at you and return fire.

Great advice, Paxari. Anyways, lovely poems Anklor. Keep on going. And if you'd be so kind, please check mine out: Random Poems for My English Class

[flames]

Incredible! Not only are you churning them out at an alarming rate, but the quality is remarkably high too! Keep it up!
(And while you're at it, why not compare your work to some of the other great poetry people here have wrote)