Short story) "why I cried today"

[nixon/monto]

Imagine, you hear a alarm clock start to increase in volume and you open you eyes and see the clock. You ignore it and sit up. You blink your eyes and now your entering the rest room. You look in the mirror and see you fursona and in stead of being freaked out you ignore it because you have been that your while entire life. You blink again and your on the road to your job. You see the lights of the city and you see hundreds of hearts and signs saying. "Happy valentines day" and you blink again. Now your on the same road going back home and you see to your right an ocean and hundreds of cars and anthros standing there facing the ocean watching the setting sun. Several are leaning on one another and some kissing. You face the road and blink again. You wake up. And start to cry, hard. your in reality. and you wake someone up. They say. "What's wrong?"  You say sobbing. "It was a dream. IT WAS A DREAM!" You start saying not knowing why.  "Why. Why. Why! WHY! WHY!!!"

That's why I cried. Because I know…I can't have any of that. Because its just a dream. And I can't have a world of anthros, of love, of a good job. I can't have it.…but why? Why can't I have it?……why. Why! WHY! WHY!!!

[anoni]

Interesting story, although if this was also a semi-rant, I'd like to say my 2c.

I believe that people will always want more, I think even if you got everything you wanted, you'd always be able to somehow one up yourself. And thus, somethings we want, cannot happen, simply because we want more and that want is what drives us. So remember that and be happy with your life right now and see if you can focus on the wants you can control and take them, because I know you can

[nixon/monto]

You think they are wants? They are not.  Let me ask you this, do people WANT love? Do they WANT to be loved?
I can not control or take them because THEY AREN'T THERE! I don't WANT more, I would like to have love, you know that thing you get when you stare into someone's eyes and your mind just goes to mush. Ya, that thing that I don't have! I wish I had it.

That was a dream I had. It was a day dream and it makes me sad to this day. I am sad and mad. Because I know everyone BUT ME has this. I've tryed to see it, I've tryed so many times! And just can't find it.……I don't know how to live, I don't feel like living if I can't find love.

I always repeat…why, why! WHY! WHY!!…why can't I find love.
I would end all this, but I don't have the strength and I care to much for everyone else. I don't know what to do.

I just don't………

[WingedZephyr]

You're not the only one without someone to love. Many, many people don't have a partner regardless of how badly they want one. It's perfectly normal to long for a partner, almost everyone goes through it at one point or another. Loneliness can hurt, a lot, but there is value in learning how to be happy even if you're alone. Love will never solve all of your problems - no matter how much it may feel that way - and it also comes with many problems of its own that you will need to be prepared to deal with.

Your existence should not be defined by whether or not you have a boyfriend or girlfriend. Relationships are only a small part of the many things that can make life enjoyable. Friends, family, hobbies, learning, traveling, doing things you've never done before. Not all of it can be experienced immediately when you want it to happen, but things will never stay the same forever. Change is always inevitable. Be patient and make yourself available to meet new people and try new things. When you're feeling lonely, go out and do something or hang out with friends instead of letting yourself drown in sadness. You may start to feel much better afterward.

[nixon/monto]

Well thank you. You've made a change in my life. You have changed the life of one human, you should feel great because you have achieved the the nearly impossible. You've made my world better. Thank you

[WingedZephyr]

I hope so, and I'm glad if I could help. Life can be overwhelmingly difficult sometimes, but it's important to find the strength to get through the rough parts. I'm sure you'll find someone to love someday, and when you do, they will be worth the wait.