Yes, so I'm the clingy girlfriend in question. I'm having some romance problems in my head, so I HOPE my mate doesn't read this....which he will. He may indeed stumble upon it. Ya know, I'd like to speak about this with him, but I can't when he's not there. Go figure.
So me and Entaru hit it off right? Total match like B-I-N-G-O. Same thinking, same twisted enjoyments, yadda....We're cruising along, hit a few bumps, but pick ourselves up and get cruising again. It's been almost a year and I hope to meet him soon. He has made a few claims that seem to back up the way I only have one photo of him, why he's gone so much lately....see, this wouldn't be a problem for me because I'd understand. I've dissapeared on him a few times myself. (though I like to at least drop a note saying where I went the moment I get a chance...he has a phone but doesn't think to send me a text saying "hey, i can't talk this weekend"...he just up and goes)
That's not the issue. The issue is, is that I worry too much. I haven't met him yet. I don't know what he's really like. Until I meet him, I have no idea what's going on over there on his end...he doesn't seem to understand how it pains me when he is so distant. Distant even when we talk, not wanting to speak beyond a few words, and while I admit I don't talk much either I wish I could get something larger than "cool" or "what are you doing?" for a conversation.
It scares me. It scares me because I have fallen so hard for this man that I would do whatever he said, even if he said to shut up and stop worrying, and if he broke my heart I could NEVER repair the scar for I will never find an equal soul like his.
So....is clingy girlfriend being too clingy? Or is there something to my worrying? What should I do?