confused and sad

[Silence the Splicer]

ok... here's the problem. i've had a lot on my mind recently and its got me real depressed, mainly because i cant get rid of a little voice in the back of my mind telling me to break up with my mate. i don't want to break up with her, i love her more than anyone in the world, but i cant stop thinking i want to leave her  ... i don't know what i should do, she's the reason i get up in the morning and continue doing what i have to do, so someday i'll be able to fly overseas to be with her, but i'm scared. i dont know if that's what i really want anymore... and that makes me really upset. i need help, does anyone know what i should do?

[WingedZephyr]

What's making you think you don't want her anymore? Is it a personality thing, interested in someone else, etc.?

[Righteousbro]

If you love her so much then why would you be confused about it? That may sound a little pushy and mean as it does in my head but thats not the intention (just clearing things up). Is it some fear of how you're going to go through with everything? Well I'd say to meditate a little and battle yourself, this sounds more epic than it is, but just try to make a decision. Instead of contradicting yourself every now and then, find a good half an hour - hour to set aside for thinking, don't push away any possibilities because of fear and be as unbiased with your final decision as possible.
Hope this helps.

[Silence the Splicer]

me and her are trying to work things out, we're taking time apart so i can figure out everything, how i feel etc. when i've made a decision after thinking for a good long while, ill tell her, and we'll see what happens. i really hope i make the right decision.

[Silence the Splicer]

 :3excellent news! it didnt take long for me to realise how wrong i was, crisis averted, we're together once again huzzah!

[Righteousbro]

Great!

If its to personal you don't need to answer or anything, but may I ask what was wrong in the first place?

[Packedsnack]

Yeah... What happened between you two?

[Silence the Splicer]

what happened was i got all weird and started doubting everything for some reason, like why we were even together, and feeling really depressed, which may have been the cause (i has a history of it). boy was i wrong

at least that's over, we're together, and im back to the happy me

[Packedsnack]

I wish you luck 

[Nyyrikkia Anikeria]

*jumps up and down* Yay! Its great to hear that! *hugs*

[Silence the Splicer]

ok... i made a mistake... and i MAY have just broken up with her.. ok i did.

but i had to. i still felt the same inside, worse even. if i'd stayed with her i would just have been lieing to keep her happy, and i can't lie... i made a huge mistake, and i don't think i can ever make up for it but i have to go on with my life now and not think about it. i really don't know what to say here...

i had to choose between lieing and making someone sad, and i chose the lesser of two evils, the one that would hurt less, for us both in the long run.

[Righteousbro]

Its cool bro, I'm sure we all understand, if you feel wrong inside no point torturing yourself, just remember to think about your decision to make sure the feeling is right or wrong. But if you aren't feeling anything there's no point lying to yourself. You'll find your soulmate eventually (if you believe in that crap). Also did you ever check a psychiatrist or something, with mood changes and random depressions like that there could be something going on in your head.

[Silence the Splicer]

thanks righteuosbro

and yeah, i've seen a psychiatrist before and i do have depression, but medication never worked i always just get over it myself. i'd just had a lot going on and i'm over it again.

i'm fine, really, i just need to get back to what makes me happy.

[iKero-chu™]

Well, everything happens for a reason.
& she probably wasn't the right one for you and thats why you felt that way.
You loved her but you weren't IN love with her, both are two very different things.

You'll find someone else.