this has beeing going on for a wall now. to day when my dad when to pick up my mom at work, when she got home she was pissed off because my dad didn't vacuum and he had lit some insets ( have no high why he dose that i told him not to because for some resin it gives me some sort of a high feeling). so my mom started to yell at him for those too things. then then start to yell at me. its feels like there going to get a devorise, is there something wrong with feeling like they should ? maybe they would be happier if they did. some of the stuff they have said to me sounds like that they would be happy if i moved out, they have said i would be able to do more if i didn't have a pup to support ( or said it kid). my dad once told me that i was nothing but an expense to him a big expense ( my serves provide messed up my cell phone bill and it came up to 600$ cnd) and my mom she said she would have had an apportion if she knew i was going to be like this ( cant member what the fight was about ) any way those to thing happened 6 yrs a go but the scar will never heal. ( the furs here are the first people ive told that to ). they ask me a lot of question a about my social life and i get uncorrectable when they do. i feel like it would be best if i moved out ASAP. they bug me to find a girl and get married so i can move out. this makes me depressed i usually feel like this 3 to four times a week.
there a quote from metallica that i would like to use that might help to describe how i feel
metallic one " i can not live i can not die darkness is impression me all i feel is absolute horror "