I think what Armagre meant was that you're looking for answers, but nobody can just tell you whether you're straight, bi, or gay. It's something you have to figure out on your own.
It's entirely possible to find males attractive in art and not want to actually be with one in RL. It's also possible you're just having some trouble getting used to the idea that you might be attracted to males in RL too. I couldn't tell you. Take some time to think it over, there's no rush. No matter what conclusion you come to, just be proud of who you are because there's no reason to be ashamed of your orientation no matter what it may be.