Life rant (i get angry in this)

[Ares the Ram]

I've been thinking alot lately about my life and what I've done and such. 21 years of work, giving up my personal wants for others, being really mellow most of the time. I don't talk much, and this has given me a rather, shall we say, "bleak", out look on the world. I don't do many things for myself, I've even asked for no presents for Christmas so my parents wouldn't have to spend as much(they bought me stuff anyway). but it seems the instant i want to do or not do something for me, I'm the bad guy. for example, my family went on a vacation last year to Arizona, i would have had to use my vacation hours to go there for a week and I said no. My sister (23) got upset and my parents were visually disappointed, even though they tried to play it off. I don't' like making people feel bad, heck I can barely say anything mean to anyone, but I cant bend to peoples will forever. even at work, people are rude. this one guy, who's a regular but not exactly my favorite customer, comes in and always wants some rotisserie chicken, if we've sold out, he complains, if i don't give him a discount, he complains. This other lady came just last Monday and wanted an 8-piece fried chicken. I only had 4 pieces but i could have put them together for the same price, but she wouldn't understand/take it and actually brought the store manager over to complain. These people have no right to complain over chicken when the world is on the verge of collapsing! go live in southern Africa for a month and then come complain to me about chicken! I've thought about ending it, i really have. the only thing keeping me from it is my code of honor. thank god for that. you know what? id like one day where no-one talked. at all. like everyones mouths were gone. I wouldn't have to hear them complain about this or that. these people think that this place, their lives, are safe, but they're not. everything could end at any minute, and yet chicken is top of their list. you need to stop worrying about every tiny thing and start loving life while its still there.
This went on longer than I thought and I apologize if its too "mean" shall we say, for the forum. I dint mean to, Ive just been keeping this pent up for so long, i feel i need to tell someone. thank you for listening and again, I'm sorry if i went too far.

edit: deleted an intro that i didnt follow up on

[Self-sain]

I'm sorry >> I'm nor sure what you want. Did you just want a silent reader, or did you one some one to say OK. Well ill tell you what I think:
1st) Take your own advice, maybe you should start loving life.
2nd) The world is a horrible place, we all know it, the only thing you can do is be one less horrible person
3rd) You can't make every one happy, and if you don't make you self happy sometimes, then you'll just end up hurting your self.
4th...ish) where did religion come in?, and if that's your anger... your pretty mellow.. people will complain about the dumbest things.. the world is just dumb.. OK like I was watching the news, and this old guy is getting robed, so he beats the guy up, and calls the police, later the guy he beats up sue's him, and the old guy actually gets charged. If that's not crap then what is. I hope that made you feel a little better, about people being dumb over chicken. At least its not that bad.

[Karma Moonshadow]

Your point about loving life is, I think, the answer. Thing is, it's just as easy for a person to highlight the good in little stuff as it is for a person to make little stuff seem worse than it is.

I was living on the street for awhile with no vehicle in a town I didn't even know, and during that time I discovered a secret. It isn't how many obviously good things happen in life that makes you happy. It's how much happiness you sift out of the ordinary things in life.