I'm Terrified.

[Kyuusoku]

 Okay, here is the story


I've seen pictures on the internet of 'revealing' pictures of girls, and I've looked at them but in real life I'm not attracted at all to girls. I've been attracted to guys my entire life, and I saw Shane Dawson's bisexual video and I don't know if I'm bisexual I really don't think I am, because I've never had sexual fantasies, or attracted to girls in real life, or imagined kissing them etc.


I'm Catholic, and I love God with all my heart and I don't know. I'm so scared and I just want opinions on if I'm bisexual, or pansexual I don't know, and I really want people to tell me what they think my sexuality is. I really don't think vaginas or boobs in real life are 'hot'. I've just found myself looking at 'boobs' or 'vaginas' or 'butts' that are female, I've watched girls kissing before.


When I was eight, this girl forced me to kiss her, and I felt disgusting after. I literally felt nothing, and it grossed me out because I was actually in church.


Please tell me your HONEST opinions on my sexuality, and this is a safe place to talk about your own. I really don't want any hatred, and please be honest.


-Wiishu

[Ræfóa Aldrnari]

Well, to me you sound as straight as you can be. Looking at genitalia of the same sex is totally natural, in my opinion. Heck, I even bust myself in looking at some of the guys at my gym.
I had this period of questioning my sexuality once myself, a little while after joining the forum. I wasn't ever attracted to any guys in real life, but I kinda had a thing for them here. Now, I don't anymore, but what I'm trying to say is: Just give it some time. Maybe you'll realize then, a little more clearly. Don't be ashamed of your sexuality, though. Every orientation is fine. Also to God.
Now, I don't want to bring religion too much up, but I believe that God doesn't care about your orientaion. In fact, he loves your orientation. I don't exactly know how Catholics look at it, I'm sorry, but that's just what I believe.
I hope I was to some help.

[MrRazot]

I think then you're straight.

I mean I've seen some guys in the nude both irl and online, even showered with some guys, and I'm still straight. Seeing another person of the same gender naked or performing sexual acts doesn't automatically make you a homosexual and so you have nothing to worry about if you're certain you're not.

If you're not straight then whatever. God made you that way.

[HollowOfHaze]

You are straight. There's nothing wrong with what you did, it doesn't have to imply thatyou are anything other than straight. Don't beat yourself up over it.

If there is a god, then I doubt he cares who anyone loves.

[Tempest (Red Panda)]

Why would you be terrified..? Doesn't your God love everyone? Didn't he make everyone the way they are?

[Kyuusoku]

Well, to me you sound as straight as you can be. Looking at genitalia of the same sex is totally natural, in my opinion. Heck, I even bust myself in looking at some of the guys at my gym.
I had this period of questioning my sexuality once myself, a little while after joining the forum. I wasn't ever attracted to any guys in real life, but I kinda had a thing for them here. Now, I don't anymore, but what I'm trying to say is: Just give it some time. Maybe you'll realize then, a little more clearly. Don't be ashamed of your sexuality, though. Every orientation is fine. Also to God.
Now, I don't want to bring religion too much up, but I believe that God doesn't care about your orientaion. In fact, he loves your orientation. I don't exactly know how Catholics look at it, I'm sorry, but that's just what I believe.
I hope I was to some help.

 Thank you for your opinion, also, it was more during puberty to be honest,

Post Merge: December 26, 2015, 11:32:13 PM And, I think God in my religion loves everyone, it's just that a lot of the people are very homophobic. Not everyone, just many people

[BulldogBrian]

Bro, why you stressing about what sexuality you are? <REMOVED>

[Kyuusoku]

 Because, I'm afraid that my friends, and my family won't accept me

[Trinity_Zane]

If your friends and family truly love you then they wouldn't want you any other way that's a true friend and family member!

[BulldogBrian]

Family aren't people who accept you for who you are. It's really just a blood thing. 'Sucks.

[Kyuusoku]

Thanks for being there for me. I've been talking to HollowOfHaze on the matter, and I find myself being less and less sexually attracted to anyone. I realized that love is what you feel inside of you, and not what you're attracted to. Well, I'm not looking at pictures of females or males anymore, and I've never fangirled over any female.


 The only people I fangirl over at the moment are Carl Grimes and Daryl Dixon I actually feel love for them, as well as Ulvus, and all of the people I actually care about. To be perfectly honest, I think I'm becoming more and more straight from this experience. Not that being another sexuality is bad.
 
 I'm not really sure how to put my feelings, but I know I'm more attracted to males. I also really FEEL something, like the butterflies for males, and not females. Thanks for letting me realize that feeling.  


 Thanks for making me feel a lot more comfortable with myself as well

[VoodooMax]

If you "feel" something when looking at someone whether they are a male or female you cannot change your sexual desires and in my opinion you religion is irrelevant to the topic at hand. People are born feeling attracted to a male or female at birth, it's just how your brain is wired and there is absolutely nothing wrong with that. You may feel one way but as you get older you may feel a different way based on your sexuality. You shouldn't feel bad just because you feel attracted to some girls or even all girls. The fact that you said you look at it online but you don't feel the same looking in real life makes me think you are hiding or suppressing you true or inner feelings towards women; on the other hand, you also said that you are attracted to guys too.

What I think is going on is as you age, your true feelings show; think about it, if you asked a child if they really like someone they most likely say "no" but as they age, so do their interest; again, there is absolutely nothing wrong with that. What I think is going on is you might be bisexual but leaning towards girls and pushing out guys. This would mean your desire to be with women will gradually increase to the point you may not like guys that much but either still be bisexual or going complete lesbian. This is just a theory of course but this may just happen if you keep feeling that way towards women. Either way, it's noting to be ashamed about, unfortunately society disproves same sex and that is a bit bothersome to me and I'm straight.

Since most people disapprove same sex, and are unaware of the feelings that go on with same sex, it wouldn't be wise to tell anyone (especially your parents) about this depending on how into they are with their religion. This may just be a phase of course, but like I said, if you keep getting these urges than you might be bisexual or even become a lesbian. There is nothing wrong with the feelings you feel and don't fight them but I wouldn't tell your parents about this unless you ease them into it but that isn't advised.     

[Kyuusoku]

 To be honest, I really am not worrying about it anymore. I know for a fact I'm not attracted to females, because I realized that when you have sexual feelings for someone, or are attracted to them, that means to FEEL something. And I feel nothing. I've had actual feelings for males, and never for females.