Life sucks right now... but im keeping my head held high!

[Babydoll Animis]

So yeah imma cry while writting this cause sad songs are all the radio spews out these days.
Let me see... Well lets start with my parnts finding out i was gay/bi... well what with them being Christian AND rednek its pretty obvious they did not take it well... boy did that take mon an emotional roller coater dive. Anyways we barely speak and still live under the same roof. My mom is a bit more interactive than my dad but notby very much so i just try to do as they ask and stay quiet and outta the way.
Well before all of this i had like three relationships.. which lead to my parents finding out... anyways. First relationship was too rushed... i couldnt keep up and by the third day marriage was already bought up... nooo. On top of that he lived in the UK and his mental stability wasnt exactly up to par.
My second relationship was pretty much a huge lie so i wont get too much into it. We hit it off great and by the time it got serious he decided to show me his real face rather than the fakes he sent me... it was closer to the US... but in Canada...
Third relationship went oh so perfect... he was an overly sweet older guy that always spoiled me and he only live a few hours away... it was too perfect though... he was married it turns out... and he had a daughter.
All of this put together i decided to go Haitus on the internet to gather myself... i stayed away for about two months and now im here.. telling whoever reads this about my life because i feel like i should tell about it. But i only have about one more year to live with my parents so its not too bad. And really im happy with myself. Im happy with what ive chosen. Im not happy that it affects things more than i think it should. but everyone has their own opinion and i cant change their minds. Ive been keeping strong!
But for right now... is it okay if i cry?

[saph the sergal]

to say the truth everyone cries i broke down just the other night because i said some really silly things to some of my friends and acted silly while doing something that i shouldnt have and as for the third guy that was just wrong of them to do

[Babydoll Animis]

to say the truth everyone cries i broke down just the other night because i said some really silly things to some of my friends and acted silly while doing something that i shouldnt have and as for the third guy that was just wrong of them to do

Right.. i guess crying isnt something that should be done.... You see crying is the body's way of saying you dont know how to react or you dont know how to deal with something. I feel like we all know how or what to do we just gotta do it. Ive gotta keep crying to a minimum. but now is alright i guess if you say so... I wanna make people happy so i smile even when it all seems bleak. I wanna be the person people goto for a smile or they need a shoulder to cry on... gah whatevs.

[Fenox Helkiin]

Ouch... I want to say I know how you feel wolfie but I don't. The closest I can relate to this is when I had a breakdown in front of my mum last week on Monday. She now knows that I'm in a relationship with cori and asked me to basically friend zone her... I would never do that and haven't. I love her too much to do that to her. My mum knows that I'm pansexual and a fur as well and she seems fine with it. I'm lucky to have her as a mum if the fact that she's quite accepting of people's opinions and I know she only told be to end things with cori because she's trying to protect me from any heartbreak she thinks I might go through later in life.

At the end of the day I feel like I know the pain you're going through but I don't think I do. If you need someone who will listen and think rationally when you can't I'm there... As I'm sure everyone else is.

[Babydoll Animis]

Oh my god i actaully am talking to a fellow pansexual!!! *squeals* i just say bi because barely anyone really knows!!! Hug meh! oh wait this is supposed to be sad... OH WHATEVER I STILL WANT MAH HUG!
and thanks... really it makes me feel so much better to know i have you guys to talk things out with

[Fenox Helkiin]

Sub....
-bear hugs-
...we're furs we look out for each other.

[Saphira/Sephir Wolfdragon]

Sub, you shouldn't push away crying like some "I don't know what to do" reaction. In my opinion it is very healthy for you to cry from time to time, it helps your body to flush out some of the feelings which otherwise will drown you. Crying leaves you with a relieved feeling because you finally got it out, so I say it is okay to cry.

*hugs*

[Babydoll Animis]

*blushes and smiles, tears up* you guys... are so awesome...

[Saphira/Sephir Wolfdragon]

We think you are awesome as well *smiles and winks*

[Tim Siguire]

Saphira T is right. Crying is ok.  ....I feel like im late, anyways, she's right. It's fine to cry about things if you want to cry.
You are really nice and interesting. People are always misunderstood and yet, those like you are keeping their heads high too.
Like a society of workers, we're here to help if you need it.
Subsie... sorry *Hugs you* I seriously can't relate but I can try to help & listen. ^^)

[Daionor]

hey, i can't relate, but i know a few people who had these problems as well, one of them being literally hit by their dad and mom, and all of their artwork they did being burned in his fireplace in front of him


i am not trying to say "buckle up, at least this this and this didnt happen" at all, what im saying is that you arent alone...  and tbf, i am a pansexual too, so there's that


just talk to us if you need to, and know that you cant always be that shoulder to cry on without one of your own, an i would be happy to be that, as well as a lot of others

[Saphira/Sephir Wolfdragon]

I can relate halfway anyways.. I'm bisexual and my parents sorta just seem to act like they don't know.. On top of that my dad has a bad habit of making bad jokes about gay people '

I know it's nothing compared to your situation but I just wanted to let you know that I understand...