Just not feeling it.

[J10-O15-N14-N14-Y25]

Lately I've been feeling dull and have spent the first two weeks of summer very bored. I'm not depressed about anything I've just had not much to do but it's beginning to get to the point of me being depressed.

There have been a few reasons to be disappointed with  myself but I did other things to make up for that. I'm starting to make electronic genre music and I believe that I have potential but I can only successfully make short tunes, I've tried to finish a song but I was unable for some reason, all I want to do is put my emotions into some work that can inspire others but I can't. I made up for things like this by skiing because it's fun and I'm very good at it but it isn't always cold in Minnesota.

I began[size=78%] [/size]realizing that I'm starting to be interested in furry art and that I'm becoming a furry so I decided to join the fandom to put something interesting in my life, I'm not sure if it will be enough though. I just need some advice or maybe just some interaction because I feel like shit right now.

[anoni]

I have a similar thing in terms of music. While I haven't actually created any electronic music, I have created piano music and manuscripts and I find that while I'm playing and improvising the tunes I make sound really good and most of the time others agree. But when I actually put effort in a song, I become too "concerned" and "analytical" about how it sounds and it causes the song to lose the jazz and emotion that it had before. Basically here's the problem

Without thought I can be creative, but it lacks structure and incomplete
With planning I can't be creative, but it's structured and complete.