I don't make friends easily. When I do make friends I keep them close, very close. They become my best friends, my life. When you become my friend you have my trust 100% and I will do anything and everything for you. The problem with that is it often turns into a one sided relationship. Others do not become as invested in the friendship as I, or at least not as quickly as I do and they leave.
This often leaves me heart broken.
I have horrible self esteem, and this makes me very dependent on my friends for a support system.
I am down to only a few friends and this is causing me to struggle in my everyday life.
I am so alone now. I am shy. I keep trying to put myself out there. On here, on other sites, and in person. I don't know what I was hoping to gain from writing this. Not even sure if I should post it.
I don't know if I am looking for advice or just someone to listen, feel free to ignore me.