Uhhh, I wouldn't call it cross dressing for me, really. I've been both genders. But I do wear things that aren't traditionally labelled male. I tend to go with the notion that clothes and other objects don't have gender, it's just liking what I like. I do enjoy stockings, if that's anything towards it?
Do you ever prepare to do something, but then wind up not doing it because you weren't in the mood? (For example, I have my tablet in my lap, art program open, music going, but can't get myself to draw.)