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Why is my brain so random.
Thaught process:
ROOOCKETS
estrogen
MAC AND CHEESE
dog
My thought process is usually:
* I wish I spent more time with those I love.
* I hope [insert name] is ok.
* I better be careful in my grammar and wording so I don't accidentally upset or confuse someone.
* I want a change of scenery.
* I'm bored, what if now I'm permanently bored??
* Life seems so limited and repetitive and death seems so daunting, too.
* I think too much.
* Gotta stop thinking so human.
* I blame how others made me feel to making me think like this.
* How can I blame them... they hurt me but I don't like thinking negative of anyone, what if I jinx them?!
* I feel dizzy / nauseous now, these thoughts are stressing me out.
* But what now...
* Gotta do things to take my mind off this.
* What's the point.
* -is gender and species confused- -feels trapped with internet as only outlet-
* -sees curse word or something upsetting / reflective- oh how obscene, now I feel stressed
* -zones in on the music being listened to- music seems so fake, it's just vibrations that I can hardly feel.
* I feel so blunt from talking logically and negative thinking... must think positively, aha!
* I want a hug.
* I feel bad getting this attention -cries-
* -starts a new thing- -gets bored-
* What's the point.
* Ah now I feel all warm and fuzzy inside though blunt I'm so foolish sometimes, why did I think about all those small things.
* I want to forget what made me feel this way.
* But may be I've always felt this way.
* How do I stop thinking about these negative things? I want my feelings back *cries*
* I wonder how gravity works.
* -panic attacks- what if gravity fails and we all go spinning off the planet.
* Calm down, it's not real.
* I know what's real but I also don't feel right.
* Those meds were useless, I'm glad I'm off them.
* No one understands me not even the psychologist.
* -talks to mate- -has thoughts of being cut off from mate- -has all random thoughts-
* Oh wait I'm typing on the forum, better finish up the post.
* Gotta think about others even though my hormones aren't right.
* -tries to think positively-
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It'd be really awesome if food could just make itself.
In the wild it usually pretty much does.
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