well...it seems my boss isnt firing me, but has told me he isnt giving me hours anymore.....says im to damaged to be working for now, and he cant comply with my wish for 5 hour shifts. (anything more is beyond my capabilities)
so its finnaly come from short hours...to sparse hours...to none..im really running short on options.
im unable to do most work...and am thinking of going to the walmart tommorow...to see if i can be a door greeter, because right now its the only thing i can think of that id be able to do.
soon, ill be giving up my car..this month i think, ill either have to sell it. or give my license plate to the DMV so i dont have to pay insurance, but i also can no longer drive it..
soon to follow that id assume my cellphone will have to cancel...so i guess i played my game as long as i could..
...it would seem im never to be able to stand on my own two feet, no matter how hard i throw myself into all that i do. im just alwase going to end up coming up short.
it would seem my application for government health insurance is going to be read too late...
this isnt so much as a ask for advice, as this is just...me feeling so scared inside that i just have to tell someone else ill fall apart.
i alwase bottle up my problems while there managable, because i feel there IS something i can do and ill just do it..
...but its only when there is litterly no possibility open to me..is when i crack under the pressure and spill out to other people..i only WISH there was some magical cure on of you could give me that would make all my problems melt away.
....if only if only..
Topic: where to look to for hope (Read 2569 times)