Jeez...
This is all very peronal and doens't at all involve other people in any way and is generally something I need to pull through by myself. I haven't lost anyone dear to my, I haven't been subject to physical or mental abuse by the first or third party and my family still loves me.
"So what's up MrRazot?"
Well I generally just feel seriously alone. I have plenty of friends on the internet (woop de doo (I love you guys)) but I need a physical friend right now. I've finished school where I was at a boarding house, constantly surrounded by people and friends and every moment was enjoyable. Now I'm done, my closest friend lives a 2 hour drive away. I could organize, but I'm thrown with the argument that petrol prices are too high or just that it would have to be a full family outing. I have no means to travel by myself at all (other than a kick scooter) and the fact that I live in almost the middle of nowhere doesn't help.
3 weeks and I go to Holland and I know there's no chance I'll be alone there. It's just right now I feel as though I'm simply existing.
I started working on an animation and I can't continue. Not because I don'r have the know how, but because I don't have the motivation or inspiration. Something I can easily get from a friend. I'm bored of doing things alone and I've spent the last 2 months in these conditions. Humans are social creatures and I'm the farthest thing from a place where I can be social.
To describe where I live could easily be defined as the middle of nowhere...
Half an hour drive to the closest CBD and it's a retirement/holiday town so there are no people in the are I live.
I feel like I'm complaining a bit to much and that I could "easily sort this out" but I can't because I don't honestly know anyone around my age and there is no one to know. I am practically marooned on an island.
I would try and fill the gap with my family, but my dad is never hear as he works away in north Africa for 3 months at a time, my mum is always at the gym, my sister (16) is either sleeping or at school and my brother (7) is either at school or doesn't understand or want to have anything to do with the things I do/like to the point he loses interest. If it doesn't have starwars or lego, he doesn't care. I think I'm going to teach him how to play minecraft. He is honestly my last hope.
I hope I can survive these 3 months of existing...
Love you guys
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