I don't usually ask for advice... I'm terribly wary of pinning my problems on other people. But I've come to a screeching halt and I need... Something...
My friends are my staple support in life, they're what make me who I am. And I've been losing my friends. It's due to a multitude of factors. Friends both in Tumwater and online, everywhere, all the time, it seems everyday, drifting off or breaking apart. I'm left with almost no close friends because of it. I'm confused and I keep getting the feeling that I'm doing something wrong. My school counselor, being that I talked to him already on this, says that an event coming up might help me, but I'm afraid that there's just something that keeps me from connecting as deeply as my companionable personality requires.
I need wisdom; I'm lacking it and I'm feeling completely lost as a result. I'm usually in control but I've lost my grasp on the situation completely. I keep withdrawing into myself because I'm afraid of making more friends that I'll just lose in what will seem like mere moments. I'm not ready for (...or deserving of) promises and strong bonds; I'll just get butterflies inside as I anticipate the worst.
Does anybody know what would help a clueless boy be content again, other than just trying to be more open or let it go...? I can't do those... Opinions, things that help you in similar scenarios, personal stories, helpful information... I don't want just sympathy and a pat on the back. I want something to subconsciously or otherwise kick me back into the incessantly happy, friendly mood I was in barely less than a year ago...
God, it was TFF that got me in that mood to begin with.
