A Cry For Help (dark poem)

[¿ Jesse Pawman ?]

"A Cry For Help"

sitting in my basement
crying my eyes out
wanting to hold you
close to my own body
but you're not there
you never were
just my imagination
is all that you were
wanting to hold someone
to love me for me
not for how i look
or how i act
but for my charm
my humor, personality

i'm sitting here
wanting to die
wanting to hurt myself
why do i have these feelings?
why do i feel like i'm worthless?
why do i want to die?
i need help
but you're not there
you never were
just my imagination
is all that you were
wanting to hold someone
to love me for me
not for how i look
or how i act
but for my charm
my humor, personality

this feeling of worthlessness
is ravaging my brain
tearing apart my soul
ripping my heart in two
knowing that no one loves me
knowing that no one cares for me
knowing that you hate me
i need help
but you're not there
you never were
just my imagination
is all that you were
wanting to hold someone
to love me for me
not for how i look
or how i act
but for my charm
my humor, personality

i don't want a counselor
to give me drugs
to fix my brain
that's been destroyed already
too damaged to repair
too broken to mend
i need help
but you're not there
you never were
just my imagination
is all that you were
wanting to hold someone
to love me for me
not for how i look
or how i act
but for my charm
my humor, personality

i can't do anything
can't play sports
can't sing
can't play instruments
can't draw
can't write
can't work
i need help
but you're not there
you never were
just my imagination
is all that you were
wanting to hold someone
to love me for me
not for how i look
or how i act
but for my charm
my humor, personality

please help me
i need you so bad
i want you so bad
i've never felt love before
but there's still hope
i know there is
it's somewhere out there
but i can't find it
i need help
but you're not there
you never were
just my imagination
is all that you were
wanting to hold someone
to love me for me
not for how i look
or how i act
but for my charm
my humor, personality