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Title: Losing my head
Post by: ENOJI Kengura on November 09, 2015, 04:16:42 PM

I am feeling like i cant trust anyone.. i mean its not like i feel like i get listened too. what i mean by that is that people DO listen to me on here.. but i want a shoulder to cry on, literally. I hold in so much pain, that even when i tell people about it, it creates more pain because i try not to cry. or i have no one to help me when im crying... I am even considering leaving this site and every site i am apart off... this probably wont happen but i just am lost right now.. even now, more and more pain is being stored in my head...i want to actually be happy for once.

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: Obey138 (Matthew "Fluffy") on November 09, 2015, 04:35:34 PM

I always cried alone in my bed and it worked every time

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: ENOJI Kengura on November 09, 2015, 04:38:42 PM

well, sometimes, that doesnt really work out for me, i sometimes lose the time to do that.

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: Traum on November 09, 2015, 06:11:16 PM

crying won't solve the problem. Sorry for being that honest with you

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: 138 on November 09, 2015, 06:28:33 PM

Quote from: Traum on November 09, 2015, 06:11:16 PM

crying won't solve the problem. Sorry for being that honest with you

That's true, but crying can help just a tiny bit. It certainly won't solve the problem. I'll give you that.

To Enoji,

I'll go ahead and tell you that you can't trust anyone. People really don't care about your feelings, and they will do anything to you. The moment you think you can trust someone, they cut your liver out, leaving you in a pool of blood. There's always people out there that will try to take your crown, and try to slay you. It's just the way of the world. I will say that you just need to move on and stay strong. It's one of those things that you really can't change.

I don't mean to be so crude. It's just how I feel about it.

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: Traum on November 09, 2015, 06:54:29 PM

nah, Vinny. Don't be that cynical. As Charlie Chaplin once said: We all want to help one another. Human beings are like that. We want to live by each other’s happiness, not by each other’s misery. But greed has poisoned men’s souls, has barricaded the world with hate.

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: Obey138 (Matthew "Fluffy") on November 09, 2015, 06:57:00 PM

Quote from: Traum on November 09, 2015, 06:11:16 PM

crying won't solve the problem. Sorry for being that honest with you

But it helps to stabilise emotionally, to stress out, which can help with solving the problem.

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: Traum on November 09, 2015, 07:07:00 PM

Quote from: Obey138 (Matthew "Fluffy") on November 09, 2015, 06:57:00 PM

But it helps to stabilise emotionally, to stress out, which can help with solving the problem.

I'm not denying that, but you shouldn't be crying all the time in the first place. It's bad and unhealthy.

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: ENOJI Kengura on November 09, 2015, 07:10:38 PM

Guys please try not to argue..

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: 138 on November 09, 2015, 07:12:12 PM

Quote from: ENOJI Kengura on November 09, 2015, 07:10:38 PM

Guys please try not to argue..

+1 for this

We don't need another locked thread

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: SirSteel on November 09, 2015, 07:33:21 PM

If you need to cry, let it out. If you're having alot of trouble and feeling really depressed have you tried talking to a family member or maybe a doctor? A school/college counselor perhaps?

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: Yena the Wolf on November 09, 2015, 07:38:03 PM

*huggles* Eat Snickers for hours. Chocolate and ice cream of all types makes everything better.



I wanna help. Oh, look up KrayZ Gaming, or Kray_ZGaming on Twitch/YouTube.

She'll make ya feel better!

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: Silentium Potens on November 09, 2015, 10:02:48 PM

What's the problem though?  Do you understand why you're in pain, or why you feel the way you do?

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: Cecilia Peromi on November 09, 2015, 11:48:36 PM

There's no shame in crying. If you have to let it out then let it out. What's unhealthy is keeping it all bottled up.

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: George on November 12, 2015, 09:17:40 AM

Quote from: Silentium Potens on November 09, 2015, 10:02:48 PM

What's the problem though?  Do you understand why you're in pain, or why you feel the way you do?

It really would help others help you help yourself if you explain the problem, Enoji.

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: Valentina on November 12, 2015, 09:43:24 AM

Enoji, I don't know what you're going through or why you feel this way... And i would hate to dis on others advice, but firstly Vinny's advice is wrong in my opinion you have to trust people and be a social person, it's what humans were born to do be social and without trust that means nothing. But like he said as well it's good to cry and let out your emotions once in awhile it's healthy but if you cry every day then you're just going to be sadder. Yena is right with food but you really don't want to live on a diet of chocolate and snacks, it's unhealthy and will just make you sadder over a longer period of time.


But Overall what I do to be happier, is I think positively, I wake up and imagine the most exciting part of my day and keep that in mind all day, I smile in the mirror because it has been proven smiling will make you happier. Be confident by walking into a room and imagining everyone loves you. And lastly speak to people that mean to you, without those that mean to you everything means nothing. Stay confident, stay positive and speak to those you love!
Hope this helps and hope you feel better <3

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: Yena the Wolf on November 12, 2015, 07:02:12 PM

MARKIPLIER IS YOUR BAE. USE HIM. HE'S PERFECT FOR ENTERTAINMENT.






I AM BATMAN.

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: ENOJI Kengura on November 12, 2015, 07:09:27 PM

sorry for a late reply you guys, but the reason i think is mainly because of my parents and them being kinda verbally abusive against me whenever their mad... but its also my grades, their not so well. and i feel extremely flustered on both things... when my parents are mad at something about me, they wont listen to my part, or let me explain my side. it happens alot...

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: Yena the Wolf on November 12, 2015, 07:11:01 PM

Retaliate. Do it. Even I would go off if someone did that to me.

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: SirSteel on November 12, 2015, 07:19:56 PM

Quote from: ENOJI Kengura on November 12, 2015, 07:09:27 PM

sorry for a late reply you guys, but the reason i think is mainly because of my parents and them being kinda verbally abusive against me whenever their mad... but its also my grades, their not so well. and i feel extremely flustered on both things... when my parents are mad at something about me, they wont listen to my part, or let me explain my side. it happens alot...

I'm sorry to hear that, abusive parents are the worst. Especially when you're in your teens and it seems everything is an unfair disagreement on either side.

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: ENOJI Kengura on November 12, 2015, 07:22:38 PM

at one point, i called CPS, they did nothing. they just came, and we never heard from them ever again.

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: SirSteel on November 12, 2015, 07:24:37 PM

Quote from: ENOJI Kengura on November 12, 2015, 07:22:38 PM

at one point, i called CPS, they did nothing. they just came, and we never heard from them ever again.

Did you try following up on their visit? Contacting them again? Is there anyone else you can contact/talk to?

If it's anything like the UK, organizations like that are useless and need to be hounded until they damn well listen to your problems  :P

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: ENOJI Kengura on November 12, 2015, 07:25:47 PM

I live in america, not really the land of the free and home of the brave... and unfortunately no. no one else i can talk to.

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: Yena the Wolf on November 12, 2015, 07:27:35 PM

What's a CPS?

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: ENOJI Kengura on November 12, 2015, 07:31:56 PM

CPS = Child Protective Services

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: SirSteel on November 12, 2015, 07:34:24 PM

Hmm :\ mind if I ask what your future plans are? Moving out? Further education?

Any friends you can hang with away from your parents? Or perhaps help each other study?

All I can say beyond that is just do your best, ignore your parents, as soon as you can then move out. No-one needs abusive parents.
If you need to vent there are loads of willing ears here to listen to you, myself included.

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: ENOJI Kengura on November 12, 2015, 07:37:23 PM

I plan to go to college and get a major in Music Production and maybe a minor in Graphic Design. I have a friend who is willing to help me out in case something happens. And for those who told me to try crying to help me, i really wish i could, but i dont have the time, nor the privacy...

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: SirSteel on November 12, 2015, 07:40:51 PM

Sounds like a good plan. Don't give up on it. Glad to hear you have some IRL friends to help you out too, that's good. College will be a good step, lots more freedom hopefully.

But yea, I guess if anything, getting away from your parents sounds like something to work towards.

Don't worry man, it'll all work out  :)

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: Yena the Wolf on November 12, 2015, 07:43:21 PM

Ever on and on I continue circling
With nothing but my hate in a carousel of agony
Till slowly I forget and my heart starts vanishing
And suddenly I see that I can't break free—
I'm

Slipping through the cracks of a dark eternity
With nothing but my pain and the paralyzing agony
To tell me who I am, who I was
Uncertainty enveloping my mind
Till I can't break free
And

Maybe it's a dream; maybe nothing else is real
But it wouldn't mean a thing if I told you how I feel
So I'm tired of all the pain, all the misery inside
And I wish that I could live feeling nothing but the night
You can tell me what to say; you can tell me where to go
But I doubt that I would care, and my heart would never know
If I make another move there'll be no more turning back
Because everything will change and it all will fade to black
Will tomorrow ever come? Will I make it through the night?
Will there ever be a place for the broken in the light?
Am I hurting? Am I sad? Should I stay, or should I go?
I've forgotten how to tell. Did I ever even know?
Can I take another step? I've done everything I can
All the people that I see I will never understand
If I find a way to change, if I step into the light
Then I'll never be the same and it all will fade to white




Ever on and on I continue circling
With nothing but my hate in a carousel of agony
Till slowly I forget and my heart starts vanishing
And suddenly I see that I can't break free—
I'm

Slipping through the cracks of a dark eternity
With nothing but my pain and the paralyzing agony
To tell me who I am, who I was
Uncertainty enveloping my mind
Till I can't break free
And

Maybe it's a dream; maybe nothing else is real
But it wouldn't mean a thing if I told you how I feel
So I'm tired of all the pain, all the misery inside
And I wish that I could live feeling nothing but the night
You can tell me what to say; you can tell me where to go
But I doubt that I would care, and my heart would never know
If I make another move there'll be no more turning back
Because everything will change and it all will fade to black
If I make another move, if I take another step
Then it all would fall apart. There'd be nothing of me left
If I'm crying in the wind, if I'm crying in the night
Will there ever be a way? Will my heart return to white?
Can you tell me who you are? Can you tell me where I am?
I've forgotten how too see; I've forgotten if I can
If I opened up my eyes there'd be no more going back
'Cause I'd throw it all away and it all would fade to black

agareteku toki no naka de demo kedarusa ga hora guruguru mawatte
Watashi kara hanareru kokoro mo mienaiwa sou shiranai?

Jibun kara ugoku koto mo naku toki no sukima ni nagasare tsuzukete
Shiranai wa mawari no koto nado watashi wa watashi sore dake

Yume miteru? Nani mo mitenai? Kataru mo muda na jibun no kotoba
Kanashimu nante tsukareru dake yo nani mo kanjizu sugoseba ii no

Tomadou kotoba ataerarete mo jibun no kokoro tada uwa no sora
Moshi watashi kara ugoku no naraba subete kaeru no nara kuro ni suru.

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: ENOJI Kengura on November 12, 2015, 07:46:00 PM

Quote from: SirSteel on November 12, 2015, 07:40:51 PM

Sounds like a good plan. Don't give up on it. Glad to hear you have some IRL friends to help you out too, that's good. College will be a good step, lots more freedom hopefully.

But yea, I guess if anything, getting away from your parents sounds like something to work towards.

Don't worry man, it'll all work out  :)

thanks. ^^ currently im just trying to keep low, and get my grades up really high. my gpa (grade point average, which is what colleges look at) is actually a b right now. ^^

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: SirSteel on November 12, 2015, 07:49:02 PM

There you go then :) ain't all bad. And don't be disheartened too much with grades. There are ALWAYS exceptions with colleges and Universities.

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: ENOJI Kengura on November 12, 2015, 07:53:34 PM

i know, but i dont just want to completely forget about them and all, but yknow, make the best image for yourself ^^

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: SirSteel on November 12, 2015, 07:55:12 PM

Yea exactly, might aswell! If you can do it then you should. I'm sure you're more than capable of doing well. Good luck to you  ;)

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: ENOJI Kengura on November 12, 2015, 08:00:46 PM

thank you very much, and thank you to everyone else. really, i really mean it. ^^ you all are the nicest and greatest because you all took the time to help me out. ^^ thank you so much.

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: Yena the Wolf on November 12, 2015, 08:02:20 PM

I gave you lyrics to practice. The Japanese language is fun to use.










have a nice day.














I AM BATMAN.

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: ENOJI Kengura on November 12, 2015, 08:04:27 PM

practice what exactly x3 japanese? i use duolingo for that ^^ and dutch

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: Yena the Wolf on November 12, 2015, 08:05:50 PM

Hey, it gives you something to do.

Bad Apple is the best J-Pop song, next to most of the Vocaloid songs.

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: ENOJI Kengura on November 12, 2015, 08:06:58 PM

VOCOLOID!! MY GOSH THEIR AMAZING! hatsune miku is my favorite! no doubt about that x3  :$

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: Yena the Wolf on November 12, 2015, 08:11:17 PM

VOCALOID FANGIRL/BOY PARTY.




*music blares*

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: ENOJI Kengura on November 12, 2015, 08:31:35 PM

*turns up the volume and began jumping to the beat*  :P XP :3

Title: Re: Losing my head
Post by: Yena the Wolf on November 13, 2015, 12:03:30 AM

Yeeeeeeeee. Vocaloid ftw.