What do I want? Many things I suppose...
I want to have a job in the future. The kind of job that can support a family, the kind of job in which I could enable my future wife to stay home if she so desires. I'm not a domestic person, I know this, but I want to do my part. Right now that dream seems very far away.
I also want to know how to compose music, especially baroque. Nothing would please me more than hearing full on complex counterpoint compositions in modern music! Well, I lied, there are things that would please me more, but it's pretty high up there.
I'd also want to learn to play Bach's Well Tempered Clavier through with one take before I die. And become fluent in Swedish and Japanese at least. Visit Japan.
But most importantly... my biggest wish at the moment... well, I can't go into very much detail because this thread would have to be in adult area for me to safely go into details, but... suffice to say, I don't want to be constantly anxious anymore, I want this feeling of being pent up to go away, I want to meet a person or people who wants to do the things I right now only wish could happen.
Wow... that was a bit pathetic ^^; but, it's an answer to the question of the OP