I'm sorry

[Fenox Helkiin]

I'm sorry if I'm being a bit clingy at times but I just want things to be okay. When I do realise just how clingy I'm being I just hide away in a room and listen to my music. Most of the time it just makes me cry even more but sometimes crying is a good thing. I'd rather be crying in a corner then hurt the people around me, Wether it's physically or emotionally, is that so wrong? It's just the way I am. I hide my emotions so often I don't even realise I'm doing it half of the time. I know that I shouldn't because it doesn't make things better it just makes them worse but I do. I can't help it. It's why I try to help other people. I do it to make myself feel like there's a point in me living. It's what's kept me going this past year. I won't deny it at one point I came pretty close to stabbing myself with a bread knife because no one was around I knew that if I did I would have bled to death. So next time someone asks why I try to help people if I try and change the subject that's why. I might not try to but if I do just think why and maybe you'll realise that I'm just a 16 year old trying to help other people in an effort to help my self. 

I know I mentioned considered "taking the easy way out" before but I feel as though you all deserve to know just how close I came and how it nearly happened.

[Alex_Mclean]

I know it's probably not my place to say anything, but, sometimes it's the things you don't say that give the most impact. I know you may not want to, and you know I can't force you to, but if you would like to talk to me about it, then I will listen.

[Fenox Helkiin]

Thanks Alex.

[Ryan Naismith]

Look, man. You're a good person. Everybody is. You should never, ever feel like you're worthless. You're a great RPer, from the skype chats we've had.
I'm not gonna say I've been there, because i haven't. But you were strong enough to stop yourself. So that means, I think, that you are a strong person. It takes a strong person to admit to these things.

[NautilusWolf]

Aww, Aakor. *huggles* Message me. I'll do what I can to help. Please don't hurt yourself.

[Fenox Helkiin]

It was a few months before I joined TFF cori don't worry I won't. People's here are far to positive. Plus I don't see the point in "taking the easy way out".

[NautilusWolf]

Oh, okay! Still, I'd love to get to know you. Pm me your skype?

[Fenox Helkiin]

Yeah sure. I don't think I have you though.

[The Magic Otter]

You know, you can always talk to me if your feeling down.

[nixon/monto]

I've felt the same way. The feeling and idea that If I try and help people maybe things will be fun and cool. Maybe war will disappear maybe just maybe people won't die for nothing. Maybe people will listen and understand. And I still have that dream today. The dream that I can help all and be friends with all. Maybe then I can be happy that I did something so amazing it changed the world, something to be remembered by. Something to love because I am loved. I feel you dude, your not in this alone. There is 7 billion people on this earth. There is always someone just like you. See you around

       Sincerely
     Nixon monto